I want to be a sexy black woman. I can't express it precisely but this whole idea of wanting this started 2 or 3 years ago.
The issue with all of this is that I'm white and male so I don't even think this could be medically possible not even in 50 years. I specifically would love to basically be Foxy Brown (the character). I know this sounds probably incredibly strange because my friends think it's ridiculous and funny to them when I talked about it before.
I don't even know where this whole thing fits into my sexuality because I like having a penis and I mean I have absolutely no idea what having a vagina feels like or anything so would I prefer men or women? I mean I already enjoy nail polish even though I haven't worn it since I was 6 or 7 and doing my hair and all of that stuff I already do so I mean I would like to look nice.
I don't know if this is a very specific fetish for that character because I mean, it is, but at the same time I just want to sometimes be a woman to not have to deal with being a man sometimes. I absolutely hate getting random erections. Also I have always wanted to know what it's like to live as a black person since I've already lived as a white person I just feel like I want to become someone else sometimes.
This whole thing sucks for me because as I've said I sometimes want to be one thing and sometimes like being another so it would be nice to switch whenever I wanted between the two but I just can't and I don't want a permanent solution either so I don't know.
I guess this is isn't asking for help but just that I want to know if this is normal or just a temporary thought or something. Am I alone with this very specific scenario? I always see people making up their minds when they were young and I've only started feeling this about 2-3 years ago.