Hi everyone.
At the moment I feel very depressed because I feel like I have no idea who I am in regards to both my gender identity and sexual orientation. Even in saying that I feel like an idiot, because I know they are supposed to be seperate issues. I just feel like I have absolutely no idea who I am anymore and I just want to not feel so terrible.
I'm seeing a psych who seems pretty good, but at the moment I'm going nowhere in therapy because I just keep oscillating between thinking I know who I am to having no idea.
I just keep telling myself I wish I was "normal" and didn't have any of the feelings I am having about feeling unhappy with the fact that I'm biologically male and feeling that I'm not "really" a boy. I just hate all of this. I have absolutely no self acceptance and I feel like I should just die sometimes. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know.
I want to be able to know who I am, I don't even know what my gender identity is anymore. I just feel so messed up and nothing seems to make sence and I wish this would all just go away.