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Close call with a near overdose

Postby IDeerInHeadlightsI » Sat May 22, 2021 10:57 pm

Due to my bad life choices, I took 2 pills yesterday afternoon. I've taken this stuff loads of times with no issue but not in a while and never this type.

I took it just before driving. Arrived home and new I was in trouble but I couldn't walk. I managed to find diazepam, took four to calm myself. Found some energade and tried to just go to sleep.

I was so out of my mind I eventually went to a place of my body being so gone I just wanted to endless sleep. What was 5 minutes turned into eternity and I felt okay. I knew I had an arythmia but it was okay. It's okay to be dead.

I put myself into the fetal position and I remembered everything. All my life flashed and it was tiring and long and I remember just wanting to sleep deeper and let go.

I knew at this point, as I would come to consciousness and watch my heart rate jump from 58 to 140 and the dial on my watch would change by the hours that I was not good. At this point it was my body only as well as some fumbled sort of timed attempts at hydrating.

Five hours later I regained a semblance of consciousness and my temperature was at 42 degrees celsius. I managed to walk outside into the cold and passed out again, slipping between the clouds and three moons.

10 hours later I was conscious enough to go to the bathroom - kidneys were functioning.

I can't afford to go to the ER as either I died yesterday or I run the risk of not getting the care I need in the future and ruining lives.

I was stupid.

My heart still feels bad but I will keep a look out.

Lesson - you can take a near lethal or lethal dose of ecstasy. Next lesson - I found some inner peace with dying. I don't think you feel scared. You worry for those you love. But the lull of peace is peaceful.

I'm acting like everything is normal but no..
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Re: Close call with a near overdose

Postby Snaga » Sun May 23, 2021 3:40 am

Please consider getting looked at, okay?

You're most definitely not dead- I'm reading this post. But I'd feel a lot better if you got checked out.
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Re: Close call with a near overdose

Postby NewSunRising » Mon May 24, 2021 11:50 am

Hey , Deer ...

How are you now ? I'm with Snaga - please get a check up if possible .

Yes , you can OD on ecstasy and personally I would be pretty skeptical of any profound revelations I had while it was still in my system .

Let us know how you're doing , OK ? Sending some hugs , if you need them .

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Re: Close call with a near overdose

Postby MindfulThoughts » Tue May 25, 2021 6:18 am

Sad to read you had a full-blown serotonin syndrome. I hope you are feeling better now! Don't be too harsh for yourself.
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