Well, I guess that I'm qualified to post on multiple forums. I have had alcohol issues all of my adult life. I don't drink everyday, and actually drink less than I used to, but I know that it aggravates my anxiety and depression,often to the point that I am nearly suicidal. I lost my best friend of forty years to suicide this year. He didn't have substance issues, though the best way to honor his memory is to refuse to give into my own demons. Add adult-diagnosis ADHD to the mix, as well as the fact that a good case could be made for borderline personality disorder, and activity addiction issues. Sometimes I want to quit for good, sometimes I don't. All I know is that I would rather die in my addictions than to do the 12-step thing again.
Thank you for your time and concern.