teenager and drinking

you guys might think this is weird so please dont judge. i am a teenager who uses drinking to numb my feeling i have a history with selfharm and have recently moved on to drinking my dad and grandad are both alchoholics so getting alchhol isnt hard. i drink almost every night and wondering when i should be concerned that its getting out of hand?

Welcome Mercyrez11 ,

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I think you know that drinking at this age will do nothing good for you or your health . Are you getting any help professionally for your self-harm ? I think that would help you tremendously .

My story: I began drinking as a teenager. At first alcohol was my best friend, but then turned into my worst enemy. Maybe it was my enemy from the very beginning, but I liked the way it made me feel.
I know that I had to find that fact out for myself as some people around me were warning me about drinking too much. I kept thinking that it happened to other people and I would make sure that it wouldn't happen to me, but it did and I became an alcoholic.
I drank for 15 years, mostly every day. In the end, I drank alone. I was no longer invited to parties because I was a drunk. Then I found out how hard it was to stop.
I have now been sober for 27 years through God's grace and AA and don't ever want to go back to what I was.
Best of luck to you.