I recently signed up for treatment/counselling. I want to cut back first then hopefully quit before I am too deep into my alcoholism. I want a job and a purpose. I drink out of pure boredom, loneliness, being afraid to be left alone with my own thoughts, escaping reality, to feel normal, I don't want to feel anymore, etc. I quit for 5 years. I wasn't an alcoholic then at all. I only drank occasionally but I was forced to quit when I got a job. Plus I lived in a tiny city where I had to bus or get a drive to the liquor store. Now that I live alone nobody can tell me not to drink or use drugs. I literally live close to 2 stores where I get my daily dose/fix of alcohol. There might be another one opening up. And there are also a few bars downtown where I live. So alcohol is way easier to access now that I live alone.
-- Thu May 18, 2017 3:19 pm --
I have been experiencing withdrawals. I get jumpy, anxious, agitated, restless, insomnia, shaky hands, irritable, etc. I have only abused alcohol for 17 months. This is the worst it has ever gotten. I didn't have an issue before that is why I quit cold turkey for 5 years. But severe boredom has caused me to start up again.