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Postby UnB743 » Sun Jun 01, 2014 12:25 am

My husband has to hide my script from me Bc I will keep popping them all day long so he gives me one a day it's the only way I can take it and it helps me when I take it right. When I take to much I feel great but then if I really take too much like 280mg then I'm almost in a dream state like I'm floating. After a binge if I don't take the same amount or more I am exhausted and have to take a few days off to get back to regular. Best not to abuse medicine.
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Re: Vyvanse

Postby ashc » Sun Jun 08, 2014 1:02 am

Yeah. Try not to abuse it. It can really mess your mind up.

I still dream about Vyvanse on a regular basis. It was the worst time of my life, but I still can't help but think it was the best time of my life. I still need ADHD meds, stimulants, but I can never abuse them again.

My tolerance built up quickly on those pills. Yours will too if you continue to abuse them. You know what sucks the most? I think I really messed my brain up...not just my thinking. I think it caused some kind of head or brain injury or something. I won't go to a doctor though.

I hope your husband or whoever continues to help you. It wouldn't have helped me. I would have bought them on the street. Good luck.
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Re: Vyvanse

Postby UnB743 » Wed Jun 11, 2014 5:44 pm

I know it's like I'm looking for that initial feeling of euphoria I used to get which I don't experience anymore I go to the dr next week so I will see if she can prescribe me a "booster" for in the afternoons. But it's gotten so bad that since I can't supplement with any adderall my friend stopped giving it to me and I don't have access to take a second dose i begged my husband last night to let me start smoking meth again he refused I really believe this would solve all my problems as I would go to bed every night with my meds but I think it's out the question so I e resorted to drinking alcohol to calm the nasty beast that keeps telling me I need more. Vyvanse really does help me it's just that I can't stop I wish there was an endless supply then I'd b happy:(

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Ive even tried supplementing with high doses of tyrosine which does nothing for me which I don't know why not but I'm about to go take some right now I prolly need to b n a 12 step program but I've got enough on my plate with two kids and a needy husband
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Re: Vyvanse

Postby ashc » Wed Jun 11, 2014 6:43 pm

Taking them every other day was best for me.

Don't start smoking meth. Meth is a terrible drug! Yuck! Good thing you have your husband to help you control it, but that's a lot of pressure on him. Nobody would have done that for me. I would have driven them completely insane.

You could try a 12 step program. I would have done it when I was on Vyvanse, because it made me more willing to get help for some reason. Now that I'm off them, I'd never go to meetings or put any effort into a program like that. I'm an alcoholic pretty much now. I drink way too much...

Alcohol will help the weird jitters and ups and downs with Vyvanse. I used to get 70mgs and my prescription (30 quantity) would be gone in 4 days or less. Then id buy Adderall . There would always be a week or so without anything even with multiple "dealers". There just wasn't enough pills in the world. Sometimes I'd take 30+ Adderall (30mg) in less than 24 hours. I hated when I'd mess up and do that though. I'd be sitting in one spot for HOURS ....like days almost...and I just couldn't move. I don't know why. Just couldn't move at all. My brain didn't want me to. It was close to catatonic schizophrenia. It was Hell. Now I don't take them anymore, but I do drink. I'll take them again for school eventually, but I'll never abuse them again. The thing is I was abusing them so much to get my mind off my ex boyfriend. Now I can see clearly, and I won't do that again... Difficult to explain. I never really felt euphoric though. The time I felt the BEST was when I'd stay awake for a week then finally decide to go to sleep. I still reminisce about it. It felt SOOOOgood to be THAT relaxed. IIt's impossible to get that kind of "high" without staying up for a week or more. That was my euphoria. Weird- I know.

I hope you get some help now. Maybe the NA meetings would be good for you ESPECIALLY if you are thinking about meth! That's taking it WAAAY too far. You couldn't have paid me to smoke any meth or snort any coke or anything to replace the vyvanse when I was out. Hell no. Good luck. Stay the hell away from meth! Plus, you have kids! You can't smoke meth!!
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Re: Vyvanse

Postby UnB743 » Fri Jun 13, 2014 4:18 pm

Thanks! I've been there before with the overdoing adderall and staying up weeks at a time it was fun somehow but extremely unhealthy dis functional I liked who I was then I thought I was brilliant and close to figuring out gods plan which probly ment I was about to die bc I was not in good condition. I think bc I can't abuse my vyvanse I am abusing everything else like smoking, drinking monsters, and eating. I've come to realize that my addictive side is really showing through right now so I got a patch to quit smoking cigs it's been one day but I'm still fighting with the monsters and eating I've cut the monsters from 6 to 3 and hope to go to 0. All of this compulsive behavior comes together like a big demon attacking me we'll I'm fighting back and yes I'm so glad I didn't get any meth I know it's just a lie I tell myself that I could control it it's the devil trying to take me down cuz he sees I'm weak so I will have to prove him wrong! Good luck when u go back to school maybe u can confide n a friend to hold ur prescription for u bc it is I think n our blood to abuse it once u have done before in the past it's hard to get over.
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Re: Vyvanse

Postby ashc » Fri Jun 13, 2014 9:31 pm

It's really good you're working on all those things. Vyvanse REALLY helped me noteat as much, and I didn't smoke near as much. In fact, I was able to quit smoking completely for quite some time when I was taking Vyvanse. I think I'll try the patch, too (when I get the money). I have to work on my self-discipline in many areas right now. I hope you're able to keep it up!
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Re: Vyvanse

Postby UnB743 » Thu Jul 03, 2014 5:51 am

Last day/ night on a stimulant. My life has recently become a huge ball of wound up of delusions that I can put together no matter how scattered. Intend on journaling as often as needed to track any change in thought or pattern there of. Synchronicity vs schizophrenia vs. delusional disorder
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Re: Vyvanse

Postby ashc » Thu Jul 03, 2014 2:35 pm

UnB743 wrote:Last day/ night on a stimulant. My life has recently become a huge ball of wound up of delusions that I can put together no matter how scattered. Intend on journaling as often as needed to track any change in thought or pattern there of. Synchronicity vs schizophrenia vs. delusional disorder


I hope the best. Family threw me in the hospital when they found all my "journaling". If you think you have schizophrenic symptoms (vyvanse will do that), then you might need some anti-psychotics.

By the way, watch your alcohol intake. I had a psychotic break when I tried quitting cold turkey. It was a living NIGHTMARE. I truly think it would not have been near as bad if I hadn't drank alcohol in it's place. On vyvanse, you really can't feel alcohol . It's going to be completely different once you get the vyvanse out of your system.

If it gets bad, you should go to the ER and tell them you're detoxing...IF you're still able to. I got to the point I feared the hospital was going to kill me too. That's why I say be careful quitting those cold turkey. I hope you gradually came off them , but that didn't help me. The psychotic break can actually cause brain damage, too, I think. Just be careful and don't drink alcohol to compensate for it while you're detoxing! Alcohol causes psychosis all on its own sometimes! Be careful if you're aleady experiencing schizophrenic (psychotic) symptoms.

I hope everything works out well. You can always post here if you need to. Good luck. Remember your brain is important! Lol. Take care of it!
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