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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby Friggle » Tue Nov 15, 2011 4:51 pm

No my mom lives with me, in my apartment. I hold it down by myself. I go to school and I go to clubs, races, bonfires whatever. There are many things I do other than get gicked up. But it's something I rather do as a guilty pleasure. I can live without them but I enjoy it too much
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby michijo » Tue Nov 15, 2011 6:23 pm

I see. I tried some drugs when a teenager, but I got sick of them really fast. For a long time I maintained the Straight Edge Punk ideal, but got to where I could drink only a small amount of alcohol in a peaceful way, and think of it as having health benefits. My parents took a lot of drugs: LSD, pills, cocaine, marijuana, alcohol. I began to not like their way of life and wanted wider and more real experiences, like going overseas or traveling in the USA. What happens when you get really old and remember your life? A life spent drinking cough syrup? I always think into the future.
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby Friggle » Tue Nov 15, 2011 8:22 pm

i live the way that pleases me, and i never regret anything i do. we dont have the same values im fine with that. getting high doesnt stop me from going overseas and experiencing other things. i have alot of experience and am continuing to learn, even by being on this forum, and learning about my life, what is npd and all that.

i can live and learn as well as a sober person. except i do it with more fun.
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby GanjDroid » Fri Jan 13, 2012 1:30 pm

Experiencing the anxiety/paranoia is from smoking sativas normally. If the anxiety happens every time its "possible" but not saying 100% maybe a bit of speed got in it? Try to let yourself experience it as another poster mentioned. If you want to continue smoking try looking for an indica strain. Read how your body reacts to it, if you are not able to find a strain or strains which work try smoking two strains in the same bowl. Taking a break from smoking, my break is minutes but on vacation I can go longer without & let my body detox from it. I do not smoke often with others generally because they are on a different level than me. Once in a while I enjoy smoking & going out with friends, I may have one beer but will go outside to smoke a bowl every 20 minutes. I prefer being chill, music, tv, movie, hike etc. 100% indicas or hybrids which lean towards indicas side, more mellow with almost no paranoia unless I get myself anxious. In the morning I may smoke a few bowls of a sativa to get me going or less with coffee. My doctor knows I smoke while taking medication which he is fine with since he knows I am able work & function as normally as possible with my BPD. Only medical complication I experience now are from several months back the pharmacy was out of my Effexor meds for one week & the withdrawals caused stomach stomach pain & vomiting. For some reason the pain has gotten worst in the past two weeks, smoking helps the pain until I can get into a specialist appointment next week. Anyway, try indicas..brownies are good too! :D :mrgreen:
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby matchless » Fri Jan 13, 2012 4:29 pm

If you have social anxiety, it's a really bad idea to smoke marijuana. It's often associated with the first panic attacks people have, and if you're predisposed to other anxiety disorders--including social anxiety-- panic disorder may aggravate them. I know how this works from personal experience.
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby SocialAnxMama » Sun Jan 22, 2012 5:49 pm

Hello. Okay I will start off by telling you that I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder at the age of 12. before i ever touched Marijuana. I am a 6'0 female and always was self conscious about being taller than alot of guys and other girls. I thought I stuck out and I couldnt handle that. I would have either anxiousness or sheer panic attacks when I was surrounded by people. I still deal with this at age 27. I went on anti depressants which eventually didnt cut it. I went on Clonopin when i had full blown panic attacks, which made me tired and didnt help Prevent my irrational craziness. So I would self medicate. Marijuana. LOVED it, and still do! However, I too had severe paranoia and my SA would kick into high gear. I also had issues with not being high, but fumbling around people and in busy places.I decided to get my reactions under control myself by confronting my own irrational fears. It really was a bizarre approach. First I call 5 random numbers a day asking for "Joe." It seems dumb, but makes sense when you think about it. You know you are probably going to confront an asshole or two, or even get a Joe. Whatever the response on the other end, you are not in control of anything but yourself. Once I was comfortable with constant rejection and being hung up on I challenged myself again. This time it was with my new job. On my first day I made sure to FORCE myself to make eye contact with each person I crossed paths with. The people who met my gaze I would make myself (shaking, with a lump in my throat) say Hey, or Good Morning. Wouldn't you know, EVERYONE I engaged met my greeting with a smile and respond. Nobody was an asshole and how could they be? I practiced this everywhere I went for MONTHS. I am now that person who can walk up to total strangers and strike up conversations. If I come across an asshole, I think in my mind that this person is dealing with Social Anxiety too. (yeah they are probably just rude, but I can think what I want eh?) Yes I still fall back into my funks of anxiety occasionally. I think I taught myself in baby steps to handle rejection, and that not EVERYONE is looking badly upon me. My biggest fear was that people thought I was dumb/ or ugly. It is surprising how many people dont even notice me until I make myself known to them. I still smoke pot occasionally, but I have the ability to work through the irrational paranoia that accompanies it. BTW if you enjoy smoking, you are gonna have to come to grips with the fact that you WILL have your paranoid insecurities. Medication isn't the answer. Being in control of yourself IS. I suggest you face this stuff head on. It may help to have someone with you that you trust or feel comfortable with until you can do it alone. baby steps! Good Luck and if you need to talk I am open to that too!
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby GanjDroid » Sun Jan 22, 2012 8:26 pm

SocialAnxMama wrote:Once I was comfortable with constant rejection and being hung up on I challenged myself again. This time it was with my new job. On my first day I made sure to FORCE myself to make eye contact with each person I crossed paths with. The people who met my gaze I would make myself (shaking, with a lump in my throat) say Hey, or Good Morning. Wouldn't you know, EVERYONE I engaged met my greeting with a smile and respond. Nobody was an asshole and how could they be? I practiced this everywhere I went for MONTHS. I am now that person who can walk up to total strangers and strike up conversations. If I come across an asshole, I think in my mind that this person is dealing with Social Anxiety too. (yeah they are probably just rude, but I can think what I want eh?) Yes I still fall back into my funks of anxiety occasionally. I think I taught myself in baby steps to handle rejection, and that not EVERYONE is looking badly upon me. My biggest fear was that people thought I was dumb/ or ugly. It is surprising how many people dont even notice me until I make myself known to them. I still smoke pot occasionally, but I have the ability to work through the irrational paranoia that accompanies it. BTW if you enjoy smoking, you are gonna have to come to grips with the fact that you WILL have your paranoid insecurities. Medication isn't the answer. Being in control of yourself IS. I suggest you face this stuff head on. It may help to have someone with you that you trust or feel comfortable with until you can do it alone. baby steps! Good Luck and if you need to talk I am open to that too!


True, smoking pot brings the paranoia, I try to balance it with other strains bottom line paranoia will be there, along with some jitters from sativas. Rejection I find is a good thing, because it keeps things fresh & forces me to open new doors allowing me to 100% keep my options open with no commitment
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby BonjourJakk » Mon Feb 06, 2012 7:08 am

The weird thing is, from ages 15-17, I smoked weed everyday socially and loved it. Never felt any negative effects from it other than getting "burnt out" easily. This was my most "rebellious" stage, you know, being a teenager and all.. hormone's are pumping like crazy. I enjoyed the weed.

When I'm 17, through 18, I'm still smoking everyday but start quickly growing more and more introverted. Very quickly I'm feeling awkward when I smoke weed and after smoking it... the group I'm with; everyone smokes it, so I just kept smoking it everyday In hopes the weed would have the same effect on me it used to; socially that is. On occasion I enjoyed getting high, but for the most part- no, It just made me so weird and quiet with nothing to say.

Anyways because I'm not really enjoying getting high anymore, come 18,19, I'm smoking considerably less pot than I used to, just kind of occasionally. I enjoyed it more when I smoked it less, cause then I got more high when I did smoke it. But, I can tell I'm "perma-fried" as they say... and this is what many people in this discussion are talking about. Even though I'm smoking a lot less weed, I'm experiencing on a daily basis (ages 18,19...)

- Not feeling real, feeling as if I'm outside of my own body
- Added depression caused by marijuana (on top of depression, nonetheless...
- Less social, socially inept

and now I'm 21, I smoke weed the least amount I ever have... and usually only by myself or in a situation that doesn't call for constant social interaction... so through ages 15-18 it was (EVERYDAY), 19, 20 (EVERY FEW DAYS) age 21 (A FEW TIMES A MONTH)

I still struggle with symptoms related to smoking weed. I know for sure that marijuana has negatively affected my: memory, and has in general worsened my depression. It just amazes me that something that was initially a great social experience could turn into something you would only want to do by yourself and much less frequently- but thats the thing, I still crave marijuana, just not socially.

I'm mostly sure that marijuana is it's most dangerous under the age 19, because I can see through reading everyone's experiences; their all remarkably simular; and we all have so much in common... we start smoking weed, love it, over time It loses it's luster, eventually it makes us paranoid and anxious- IN A SOCIAL SETTING, not nessarily by one's self, which is very strange... anyways I could rant about this forever but I'd defiently like to study this...
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby ursus_arctos » Tue Feb 28, 2012 8:25 am

Can't believe I stumbled on this thread; never seen so many replies that match my experience. I started smoking a little later than most, the summer after graduating high school. The first few times I didn't really feel anything but I chock that up now to the schwag that was available and my virgin lungs. It was fun tho and when I did smoke there was mild euphoria and no anxiety. At the time I was focusing on school so I didn't toke on a regular basis. A couple years later in college I found a guy who could hook me up with high grade $#%^. So i started buying regularly and i was smoking a couple spliffs a day at this point. Anything was more fun blazed and it gave me energy. I'd wanna go outside. Music was incredible. Anything was so interesting, I remember being blown away by a stupid Ritz cracker commercial. It was like this for a couple years, probably smoking alone half the time and blazing with friends the other half. We'd go out and I had no problem making new friends and meeting girls. Just feeling chilled out and sociable, giggly, and euphoric.

The paranoia crept up slowly. It took about 2 years of daily toking. I'd start worrying about getting caught, someone smelling it, people outside watching me at night. For no reason. Things that I'd never worry about sober. And when I smoked with people I'd clam up, feel self conscious, tired, and out of it. Before I could smoke out any of my friends and now I could hardly take 2 puffs before I felt lame. I've always been quiet but I had self confidence because I achieved high. I guess I was introverted but still sociable. But when I smoked I lost all confidence and felt like a socially inept loser, awkward, and that people only put up with me cuz i provided bud or out of pity. Paranoid thoughts. As I continued smoking it just got worse. Sometimes I would start feeling a panic attack coming after just 1 puff, my heart beating so hard surely everyone could see it pounding. There was no reason to feel afraid but I couldn't stop it.

So I started only smoking by myself. At night after everyone was asleep and I knew no one would catch me. I'd still get minor physical symptoms of a panic attack like racing heartbeat, physical weakness, dizziness but also I could focus in on like a tv show and laugh and relax. One time I got a panic attack, thought I was dieing so I stumbled around (didnt want to die on the couch lol) and passed out and cracked my face on a table corner. Got a black eye. That was a year ago. I still blaze every night altho I've tried to stop many times. But when I don't smoke I just feel nothing, like not bad but not good. Nothing is funny when I'm not high. I fake laugh all the time so I don't look autistic. I don't remember if I used to have a better sense of humor, I think I did. I can't really make new friends because even tho I want to reach out to them I can't...it's like I can't find interest in anything anyone has to say anymore but I want to. Haven't had a gf in years, I can make a decent first impression sometimes but its only a matter of time before I run out of things to say. Chicks don't dig it. It probably looks like I'm slow or immature or she thinks I don't like her. I gave up on all my hobbies because they just bore me now. Don't have much creativity anymore. Used to be straight A student, now I couldnt give a $#%^ about school, I literally cannot find anything interesting in school and its just anxiety provoking even going. Whenever I talk to anyone now I catch this look in their eye, like they realize somethings off with me. Objectively I know that I am as good if not more capable than most but when I'm out in the world it's like everyone is so pure and spontaneous, and natural and I'm the total opposite.

I'm distanced from my friends. Last time I chilled with my best buds all the way back from preschool/grade school it was like we were strangers. I've found that really hard exercise makes me feel borderline normal for about 2 hours. Also if I do heavy cardio before blazing than it reduces the anxiety a bit. I still smoke because it seems like the only way to laugh or feel real emotion beyond my normal sober dysphoria. I think the fact that I realize I'm not behaving normally means I'm not crazy tho. But it makes me wonder if getting hooked on weed caused this, or if I got hooked on weed because my brain predisposed me to loving it and to the anxiety $#%^.
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Re: Marijuana Anxiety

Postby pennyx » Thu Apr 26, 2012 9:00 am

My experience differs;
I had anxiety from a young age, as long as I can remember. Now, pot allows me to go out, socialise, focus, go shopping, walk, whatever. I don't know many people the same, I smoked since I was 16. I have BP1 so not sure if that's relevant. Pot helps me live as normally as I can and the withdrawls are minor, compared to if I stopped taking mood stabilisers.
It's very much dependent on the user I think.
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