A bit of history...
I’m a woman and in a relationship with another woman. But before that, all my previous experiences were with men and was even married to a man. This is the first time I’ve been involved with a woman and I feel not completely all in. 80?
I have an art background so seeing nude people posing for figure drawing practice or photography etc doesn’t bother me. I appreciate the human body and can say that all sorts of people are attractive. But this one woman got to me to the point that I kept thinking about them all day, everyday. I fell for her.
Now I’m wondering about myself. I see myself constantly being the dominant one. Sometimes I have random thoughts or dreams that I have a male version of myself with her. But then I feel like if I’m with a man I feel it balances me out in that I enjoy them being the more dominant one with the occasion that I am dominant too.
So I am so confused now. I talk about futures with her, but then I am also sometimes hesitant thinking if I’m being true to myself. She never thought about having a kid, but she can see a family with me. Whether that’s through adoption or whatever, I am ok with that. I am open to starting a family as well.
I’m sorry that this all might sound like I’m all over the place, but my head is all over the place right now too. Thanks for lending an ear... or eyes in this case... ha