Dissociation during sex..

I don't even know if this is a thing.

I'm a sex worker and have been (on and off) for the majority of my life.

Just recently I realised that I have difficulty remembering what I've done during one of my sessions. It's not that I don't remember at all because when I'm back in that situation with the same person I know exactly what they like and what turns them on. But it's as though as soon as I'm not in that situation Im a completely different person and I can't even remember who I was during that situation.

It is as if I'm two separate people and we are both very very different.

Sounds like that might actually be somewhat normal. You're involved in an intimate act, but with someone for whom you have not much emotional involvement. You're only really focused on pleasing them, as a business arrangement. You're becoming what they want rather than who you are. So those events are not a big part of your psyche or your life.

If you had that same experience with someone for whom there was emotional involvement, with whom you are really being yourself, that might be more of an issue, or a greater sign of dissociation. That might be a better test than working with a client.

Yeah that makes sense. Thank you.