Fantasies where I am someone's victim

Idk why but I always fantasize about being someone else's victim

Whether it's the teachers, the therapists, the clients, or the other end of an enraged lovers abuse.

I guess even their hatred for me would be enough to show they care.

Could be masochism or inverted narcissism or anything of the sort.

If it's a pervasive desire my advice would be to explore it slowly and safely, little steps first. Even if it's exciting for someone to have power over you it's also a dangerous place to be, plenty of people can be bad for us.

I've heard before that that could be a... it relieves one of responsibility or shame- it's being done TO you, not BY you. Which kinda makes sense to me. I think I engage in a little of that path of reasoning.