Disgusted By Regular Society/Sex

I've been keeping this to myself because I dont think anyone would be able to relate but I am absolutely turned off and disgusted by the thought of someone's toes curling during sex. I hate it in porn, especially. It's an immediate turn off.

I also cant stay in the mood when I think of someone I really like. I'm into abnormal sex like monsters or demon sex. I'm also a virgin and must mention that I was sexually molested as a child 5/6 years old but by a girl in my family.

I'm not sure why I am turned off by normal things and turned on by heathenry... i have a thing for forbidden situations.