Past mistakes

I had days where I made mistakes, sexual searching online and then I forget about it, and sometimes when things are ok these memories come back. I get depressed. Things I don't do anymore, are still there in my memory and body if you will.
I had a few bad months several years ago and again about a year ago where I would seek extreme sexual adventures, submission, allowing for people to take control. They turned out to be fake,. The talks were just online, they never happened, but still I feel hurt by the words that were exchanged.

Had sexual encounter with same sex the first time I was so drunk.

Jordon, where are you today with your past?

had many same sex encounters. was about to be beaten up once because made a pass at straight guy. still regret them. still feel miserable because of them. was about to indulge in one act today. luckily the other person didnt show interest.

Sorry to say, but after taking time in replying to you here, the process timed me out and I'll need to re write what I just spent was to much time on. Suffice it to say I agree with you. I have had two worthless hook-ups that came to not. My first was the best. Nice guy, easy going, nice cock, big donor....