Hi, Im new in this forum and I'm very ashamed for being here but I need help.
I'm in a lonely moment of my life(coz personal decision). I was doing well until one day I entered to a webcam site. I found a girl there that I really like her and I had a pvt. After that I started to talk more serious with her almost daily. Well after some month I can tell we created a really nice "relationship". I really think she is 100% legit with me and I tested her so many times about it, so that's not a problem and if she fooled me, I wouldnt be angry. The problem is that i know it's an impossible ilusion relationship an Im struggling myself to stop it but I cant. When Im with her it's the moment on the day im happier(and no, most of the time we dont do sexual stuff), when i receive a notification on my cel from her my heart beats faster, I feel like a teenager and It makes me feel stupid. My rational part knows what I have to do: tell her thank you for everything, close the accounts and block her from my phone, but my heart cant do that, only thinking it's painful. Also it hurts when I know she is in pvt. The question is: does anyone have a suggestion about how I can make the first step?
Thanks