Dreading and sleeping through the holidays

With the holidays coming up, and all this talk of ppl being with their family and friends, and my being alone again (just me & my 2 kitties)....I am hoping to sleep thru Thanksgiving and Christmas. My family doesn't get together anymore since my 2 other brothers have family of their own (one is in Texas and I'm in NYS, the other goes to visit his in laws in MA and they hate our family) and spend time with them. My mom has a boyfriend (both are widows) and she spends the holidays with him.

This year will also be the first time I will not be expecting any Christmas gifts. In the past, my mom would send me a gift or 2. But this year, she has had more bills and expenses..and I don't expect her to do anything, although she has done so out of love. I know that probably sounds childish, but it just makes the day less interesting. Hoping to sleep my way thru Christmas Day too.

I don't have a car, so I can't go and visit others. I just lost one of my cats to illness, and that is also taking a toll.
Not going to put up decorations or do anything. I'm going to try and avoid the "Holiday cheer" nonsense too, not because I want to feel this way, but because Thanksgiving and Christmas are just another day for me. The thought of seeing others spending time with loved ones while I cannot is too hard as is.

Do any of you try to just sleep thru the holidays?

Hello,

Am I sorry for what you are going through. You seem to be going through a lot of suffering. Spending the holidays alone is one of my biggest fears. Isn't there anyone who could keep you company during the holidays? A friend, a colleague, an acquaintance? People are usually happy to offer help during the holiday season. No one wants to let somebody spend Christmas alone. Ask for help, there is nothing to be ashamed of. Take care!

The stores in my neighborhood are already putting up Christmas trees for sale. And Halloween is still 4 weeks away!

I dread the holidays. But I've learned not to participate in it. I don't do Christmas cards, nor do I buy any Christmas gifts. It makes life much easier when I don't "have to" buy anyone gifts.