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It's All Empty

Postby IDeerInHeadlightsI » Wed Jan 20, 2021 9:50 pm

When you have screwed things up beyond repair, nothing matters anymore.

I'm not depressed. I'm not happy. I'm just an it now.

Things that I thought were real problems were not psychological, just medical. Things that I thought could be psychologically resolved because of medical impact, now healthy, go back to hollow.

It's not even a hollow that needs to be filled. It's just mehness.

I thought I loved - but now I can't retrace that feeling.

I thought I hated - also can't retrace it.

Tracing outlines of emotions I remember having and now can't recall feeling.

I just sit in silence now and dislike being around others, having them notice me or touch me. It reminds me of how empty I feel and how I wasn't for a while.

Complete existential crisis.
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Re: It's All Empty

Postby Snaga » Thu Jan 21, 2021 2:51 am

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Tell someone you love them today, for Life is short. But scream it at them in Klingon, for Life is also terrifying and confusing.

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Re: It's All Empty

Postby AArgon » Fri Jan 22, 2021 2:29 pm

IDeerInHeadlightsI wrote:When you have screwed things up beyond repair, nothing matters anymore.

I'm not depressed. I'm not happy. I'm just an it now.

Things that I thought were real problems were not psychological, just medical. Things that I thought could be psychologically resolved because of medical impact, now healthy, go back to hollow.

It's not even a hollow that needs to be filled. It's just mehness.

I thought I loved - but now I can't retrace that feeling.

I thought I hated - also can't retrace it.

Tracing outlines of emotions I remember having and now can't recall feeling.

I just sit in silence now and dislike being around others, having them notice me or touch me. It reminds me of how empty I feel and how I wasn't for a while.

Complete existential crisis.

I've noticed some emotional numbing in the past few years. I still love kitty. But people? I don't know how that's possible.
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