I believe I have the rare disease below. I will let Wikipedia describe what it is.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spinocerebellar_ataxia
I have lived most of my 68 years with psychological difficulties caused from childhood sexual abuse. I take Zoloft and bupropion to combat depression. I began having strokes at 55. I have had 3 MRIs which show brain atrophy. I have many of the symptoms of SCA. I see a neurologist on July 20 to possibly get a diagnosis, which can take years to get.
The point is not long after I had a small stroke in the brain stem I visited my daughter. After missing my Zoloft for a few days and drinking a martini I blew up and had a total meltdown, screaming at my daughter that she will be a terrible mother because she is emotionally so cold. The whole story is too long and complicated to get into here. But this ruined our relationship. So I have this guilt plus disability looming in my future. I thank the scientists for the anti-depression medication, and gardening, that get me through the day.