Couldn't figure out where to put this. EMDR Trauma Therapy

I just spoke to my mom and I asked her for the insurance info so i could book a therapy appointment since i'm no longer on my bipolar medication. And i've never taken meds for PTSD.

I know that i'm not okay. And maybe I need someone to help me lessen these feelings.

I've done EMDR therapy inpatient before and its the only kind of therapy thats ever even remotely helped me so i'm looking into EMDR therapists that specialize in rape trauma AND mood disorders since I'm also schizoaffective - bipolar type.

I'm actually very hopeful about it. But scared to re-live it all. I'm hoping we can just ease into therapy and not jump straight into EMDR when i dont' trust them.

I don't know guys. I hate therapy. But i'm willing to try.

I think we have to move forward to get a better quality of life. Therapy changes and has gotten much better, also different therapists do better with different people. Give it a try and if it is not working try someone else or maybe try at some other time.

Come back here and give us some feedback.

Good luck with it.

I called everyone and there was only one therapist in this city of 3million that would even give me a chance. Some didn't take my insurance or didn't do EMDR, but I found a very nice lady who works on a sliding scale and she agreed to meet me next week for only 25$ at her office to see whats going on with me because i sounded so distressed. She said we may be able to work out something for both of us.

I have a little hope. I lost it for a second. I'm still freaking out. She asked me what was wrong and I could barely answer her. I just kept thinking, THATS not even the hard question. How am i going to freak out when she asks me the real questions.

I'm no good at talking on the phone and talking about something so personal was doubly hard!!! Thank god i've made an appointment and can quit calling around, that was torture!!

I hope it helps. Good luck.

Safe hugs if wanted

How did the meeting?session go for you?

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seabreezeblue wrote:How did the meeting?session go for you?

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It went well! I was honest about my suicidal thoughts and wanting to cut, being off medication and previous homicidal thoughts, sexual abuse and the nightmares/flashbacks even and she just took it all in and never judged me. I go back this tuesday and she's only going to charge me 25$ a session even with no insurance. I think she really wants to help me.