I just spoke to my mom and I asked her for the insurance info so i could book a therapy appointment since i'm no longer on my bipolar medication. And i've never taken meds for PTSD.
I know that i'm not okay. And maybe I need someone to help me lessen these feelings.
I've done EMDR therapy inpatient before and its the only kind of therapy thats ever even remotely helped me so i'm looking into EMDR therapists that specialize in rape trauma AND mood disorders since I'm also schizoaffective - bipolar type.
I'm actually very hopeful about it. But scared to re-live it all. I'm hoping we can just ease into therapy and not jump straight into EMDR when i dont' trust them.
I don't know guys. I hate therapy. But i'm willing to try.