I can't trust doctors!

Was close to hanging myself but the rope broke

Most cities have facilities that offer emergency visits to see a psychiatrist for an assessment. I would strongly advise to look into it.

I am sorry that you haven't been getting support. It sounds like your husband should be more attentive to your suicidal thoughts.

I am really sorry that you are struggling with so much.
It does need to be said though, that if you do kill yourself, it increases the chances that your kids will one day as well by 80%.
I am a mom too. I have been down that dark path hun. There is no shame in not knowing all the answers as to how to feel better. No one has everything all figured out. You need help though.
Your ill. Mentally ill if you are wanting to die. Ill people think ill thoughts. So going to a place that understands this illness is how you can get well again.
I got well. You can too. You just need a little help. You deserve help.
Pm anytime if you would like to talk ok?
Sometimes people just do not know how to respond in a supportive way. They freeze. But it doesnt necessarily mean they dont care. It means they dont know what to say.
With Hope and a Hug
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You are in a really problematic situation. However, it is not as if your husband doesnt care. Sometimes, people simply do not have strength to live through certain situations. Depression is a really hard condition for entire family. As such, different people react differently to it.