*may trigger- paraphilias* Re-deviancy Conditioning?

I realize most paraphilias are subconsciously developed but there was a point pretty recently when I decided I wanted to have a sexual attraction to x, y, and z. Things like necrosadism, pedophilia, and child abuse. I'd never act on these they're just fantasies I learned to enjoy. I conditioned myself by thinking about it throughout the day, looking at images on gore sites, and reading about necrophilia/pedophilia. I went about a month without thinking about these things, most of them. Now I don't find myself jumping to those thoughts while sexually excited.

At the time when it was constant it felt overwhelming but now it doesn't cross my mind. I want it back. I want to have pleasure in things, to expand my interests. To do this should I think about it like daydream? I read about paraphilia reconditioning, things like aversion, reconditioning, thinking of negative effects about sexual fantasies, etc. should I use these techniques in reverse? As in use it to attract myself to necrosadism, necrophilia, etc. instead of using it to avoid it.

Any tips on doing this?

Why do you want to have a paraphilia?

To put psychology into practice. Seeing if it's possible to make a personality change willingly and change attraction to things.

It seams quite drastic to do this just to see if it's possible. Why not try to make a positive change?

Having a paraphilia isn't generally a matter of wanting it or not. Self-control is possible. It depends a lot on the person affected.

Vorsk wrote:I decided I wanted to have a sexual attraction to x, y, and z. Things like necrosadism, pedophilia, and child abuse. .....I conditioned myself by thinking about it throughout the day, looking at images on gore sites, and reading about necrophilia/pedophilia. .....I want it back. I want to have pleasure in things, to expand my interests. To do this should I think about it like daydream? I read about paraphilia reconditioning, things like aversion, reconditioning, thinking of negative effects about sexual fantasies, etc. should I use these techniques in reverse? As in use it to attract myself to necrosadism, necrophilia, etc. instead of using it to avoid it.

This person clearly sates they want a paraphilia.

I've moved this to the Paraphilias forum. As it's not appropriate for LWMI.

Please keep sexually themed discussions in the Sexual forums.