Here we go...
Some 40 years ago I enlisted in the military and was stationed in the Phillipines for about a year.
As a young kid you don't know a ######6 thing about those places. Hell, you were in high school not too long ago. So being young and dumb ya just follow the older guys around.
So ya hit the bars, something all young guys do and you would have also. You can't walk in any bar over there and not be surrounded by..."buy me drink?" So what do you do? Yep, you do what young guys do. These girls are working in bars and nobody gives a fat ###$ about anything. Let me stress....NOBODY!!!!!...cares.
I had sex with dozens of these Filipino girls and I didn't ask questions, I was just trying to relieve stress. I found out later that most of these girls were 12-years old and working girls.
Now.......once you get older and learn about how things really were there with the sex slavery thing ya get pissed off about that situation. Those poor girls and why weren't we told of their plight?
But I always think about it and I've never found the same pleasure in older women. I have been married to my wife J for 20 years but it's not the same. I haven't acted on my urges, but all I think about is sex with those young Asian girls, I can't feel the same way about anything else, I fear it has scarred me and I'm only attracted to young, underaged girls.
I have many troubles in my life. I am 280 pounds and have been severely overweight for about 15 years now. I have a terrible gambling habit that has cost me thousands of dollars and I can't stop. My son is a constant disappointment and we don't have a good relationship.
When you have such a depressing life, you try to think positive, but I fear that my experiences in the military has made me feel ashamed of my sexual preferences and I can't get over it. I've tried to talk about it on other forums but they just ridicule me and attack me. I can't get over it.