failedatlife's Journal (Replies Welcome)

I am going on a walk and I am afraid that I might either get beaten for looking gay or get in a car crash and become severely mentally disabled and aggressive and I feel like all that would happen despite that I write about it here.

The parliament did pass the law that prohibits 'gay propaganda' and I don't think they would even begin to describe what they think this means but yeah, an EU member country is essentially and voluntarily turning itself in a quasi-Russia. I fear it's just a matter of time that they officially outlaw homosexually or use this law as a tool of persecution against LGBT+ people and I think it will happen despite that I write about it here.

I also fear I will die from a heart attack and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I still fear that soon I will get in a car crash or something and become severely mentally disabled and be a burden to my family and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I just got home from work and I did a huge mistake there. In the last 5 minutes I was bored as hell so I decided to call it a day and go to the WC. I thought I had successfully logged myself out but when I got back it turned out there was a customer on the phone (I work in a call center and we do video calls) and it is strictly prohibited getting up without putting yourself on pause or logging out. I am afraid that tomorrow or in the coming days this will either be spotted or the customer will complain himself and I will get permanently deactivated and fired and I feel that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I still fear that there will be a complaint from the customer or the headquarters of the company and I will lose my job and I will never be able to get another one and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

failedatlife wrote:I still fear that there will be a complaint from the customer or the headquarters of the company and I will lose my job and I will never be able to get another one and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I fear screwing up at work every day. You have to just turn that off, and decide not to worry about what you can't change. I have to do that very often.

Snaga wrote:

failedatlife wrote:I still fear that there will be a complaint from the customer or the headquarters of the company and I will lose my job and I will never be able to get another one and that will happen despite that I write about it here.

I fear screwing up at work every day. You have to just turn that off, and decide not to worry about what you can't change. I have to do that very often.

I know. But knowing that often when I think something is going to happen and I try to turn a blind eye to it, it's happening. I'm going to work now. I hope everything is fine although I think I am getting in trouble despite that I write about it here.

I want to start working part time at my current job starting the next month but I am afraid it will be a mistake since I will get less money and start experiencing financial issues but in the same time I really need a bit more time to relax because I feel exhausted but I fear that financial issues will happen despite that I write about it here. What should I do?

I am still afraid that I might be doing a mistake switching to a part-time working as I think I am going to run out of money and/or not getting any other job for the rest of my life and I also think I might run out of money or that my father won't accept me switching to part time and I think all that is happening despite that I write about it here.