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Postby xXDarkStarXx » Sun Jun 28, 2020 8:58 pm

Alright, so I haven't updated this little stupid, drama filled story in awhile. So... Basically, although I briefly "exposed" him on social media, sent his behaviors to the station & etc..and his wife.. nothing happened. I don't wanna say too much but to make a long story short, I ended up apologizing to him because I'm a weak person & he still has a job, his wife & his family. It's as if nothing happened.

So, I started supporting him on social media again and at first he was ignoring me. Then, all of a sudden, he started liking my posts. Then he started ignoring me again...and now, he is in a stage where he is ignoring me again..

And guess what? After all that has happened, I'm still madly in love with him. I was put in the hospital a couple of times over this man .... I don't know how to let this go. I have never felt this way about anyone in my life. He's like a fatal attraction.

:( I'm crying re-reading my posts about this whole thing. I am pathetic and I guess I just accepted it. I still think he's a covert narcissist. He lacks empathy and subtly begs foe attention... But no matter what, I still love him.. Narc or no Narc. Oh well. The heart wants what it wants and that freaking sucks. He doesn't have me blocked or anything. I sent him a few messages he never replied to.. (surprise.) I'm gonna love this man forever.. and I knew it the 1st time I put eyes on him.. I just wanna stop but oh my God..
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