The fear of being in denial drives me crazy (TOCD)

Fear of enjoying the thoughts

I had TOCD once, 8 years ago and now it's back, same symptoms. It pretty much tells me that i would like to be a feminine/a girl, and constantly shoves me with images and tells me that i'd like to have breasts and stuff. I've been having the compulsion of wearing feminine clothes and my brain says "here, you like, don't you?". It feels like the real deal and my anxiety goes through the roof, however, whenever i'm dressed like a woman and i forget that i'm dressed like one, i started to feel like myself again but this time a little bit silly dressing in girls clothes. Like i'm not a woman but a guy dressed in girls clothes. Sorry if i can't put it into words properly. Whenever i say to myself "i'm going to dress like a girl" i fear i'll like it and that proves that i'm transgender.

I started thinking

I really am transgender but in denial

I like the image in my head because it pictures a woman and i'm a guy who likes girls and my mind does this twist.

It's plain and simple OCD messing with my head

flyingocelot wrote:It's plain and simple OCD messing with my head

Correct.