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My Trans Truth Has Revealed Itself! :O HELP!!!

Postby FreshGuy » Mon Oct 19, 2020 1:13 pm

HELP!!!

My trans truth has revealed itself to me. I don't want to be a woman, I wish I could stay a man but I can't fight my trans truth :'(.

When I've been looking in the mirror today, I just see ugliness. This is a clear sign of being a transsexual.

All my mental health issues, the root cause is me being unable to accept being a transsexual. I really wish that wasn't so, I wish this wasn't the case but it is.

I wish I could stay a man but my transsexualism has revealed itself and reared its ugly head.

I just want to stay a man, I want this transsexualism to go away as it has taken everything I've ever had and destroyed it and my life is crumbling to pieces.

I don't want this life.

It makes sense that the root cause of all my mental health issues is being unable to accept being a transsexual.

Please please please, can somebody help me? How can I make it go away? I just want to be a man and live my life as a man, I don't want to be a woman.

I don't know what to do anymore, I can't take this :cry: :cry: :cry:
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Re: My Trans Truth Has Revealed Itself! :O HELP!!!

Postby thegentlepath » Mon Oct 19, 2020 2:31 pm

Hi FreshGuy,

How can we help you?
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Re: My Trans Truth Has Revealed Itself! :O HELP!!!

Postby FreshGuy » Mon Oct 19, 2020 3:37 pm

thegentlepath wrote:Hi FreshGuy,

How can we help you?


I’m mentally breaking down,
I’m scared I’m a transsexual but I don’t want to be.

I wish I could stay as a man, I want to be a man, not a woman :(
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Re: My Trans Truth Has Revealed Itself! :O HELP!!!

Postby thegentlepath » Mon Oct 19, 2020 6:09 pm

Okay. I’m not really sure how to help, but maybe somebody else will. Good luck.
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Re: My Trans Truth Has Revealed Itself! :O HELP!!!

Postby Snaga » Tue Oct 27, 2020 4:30 pm

FreshGuy wrote:When I've been looking in the mirror today, I just see ugliness. This is a clear sign of being a transsexual.


Or just not liking how you look?

FreshGuy wrote:Please please please, can somebody help me? How can I make it go away? I just want to be a man and live my life as a man, I don't want to be a woman.


If you were Trans, really Trans, remaining male would be the thing that would feel your heart with despair, seriously.

It really seems as if your OCD is spiking, you do not sound at all really trans, to me. I'm almost trans, and believe me, I just don't feel it in your posts.

The only thing I can advise, is what I did with my OCD obsessions over whether I'm straight or gay (I'm Bi, so I'm both and neither, which is SO fun when you're someone with OCD) or my harm OCD, and that's to make your mind up you're NOT trans (and deep inside, I think you know that, when you can step away from the terror of it, a moment) and stick to that no matter what your brain screams at you. OCD isn't entirely rational (or at all), and is stubborn, so I find I have to out-stubborn it.
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Re: My Trans Truth Has Revealed Itself! :O HELP!!!

Postby FreshGuy » Fri Nov 06, 2020 3:57 am

I just heard a really triggering song from a singer I like. She is called Poppy and she is cisgender (I think) but she has a song where she is asking if she is a boy or a girl and she says sometimes she’s masculine and sometimes she’s feminine and obviously it’s really triggered my OCD as it’s all about gender.

I’m just so scared and thinking maybe the only reason I listened to it is because I’m a transsexual

I really hate having OCD. It really has ruined my life, alongside my binge eating disorder

-- Fri Nov 06, 2020 4:04 am --

Also I was playing a discord game and one of the questions was if you could be any celebrity who would you be and my brain immediately said Nicki Minaj who is obviously a woman and I AM A MAN.

That was so transsexual of me to think that.

Also there was another question that said if you were the other gender for a day what would you do and I said play with my breasts and kiss straight men

They were just random questions from a topic generator but the Nicki Minaj answer really scared me. If I am cisgender then why would I think that??

I think Nicki is cool and I like her music and she lives a rich lifestyle. I don’t know if I would want to be her permanently but I just don’t know why a WOMAN came into my head for that question, rather than a man. Maybe because women can be more relatable to gay men in some instances so maybe that it why (hopefully).

I really don’t want to be a woman but now I’m scared and the thoughts are winning.

I just want these thoughts to go

Maybe it is all true and I am a transsexual. I hope not though
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Re: My Trans Truth Has Revealed Itself! :O HELP!!!

Postby Snaga » Fri Nov 06, 2020 7:13 am

I know you're gay, but please show me a straight man that wouldn't want to be a hot chick for one day, and play with his boobs.


I'll wait.



To me, that is SO not trans. I just about guarantee you, if you ask a dozen straight cismales that question, most of them will quickly spit out a name of a chick they got the hots for.

I'm kind of partial to Sofia Vergara, myself. I could totally rock that bod for a day.


And I have seen guys who are about as flaming as they get, play with girls' boobs. I mean, boobs- we're wired for them, if nothing else as a source of nourishment as infants.

And do you think Nikki is simply fabulous? Long history of gay dudes idolizing certain fab women. I'm not immune to it- as a bi cismale (speaking as if I weren't a system) I know there are women that we like as a straight guy, women that we like as a gay guy, because they're simply ab fab sweetie! And... being bi... women that we like both of those ways. (and can sometimes feel confusing as hell)

and besides, what about drag? Are drag queens transsexual? Nope.

Don't forget the wisdom of Auntie Noxie

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