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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Alanator » Mon Sep 01, 2014 7:28 pm

I did something really bad. I cheated on her by sexting another chick and now we're kinda broken up... my girlfriend is in the hospital with severe depression due to my ROCD that's been going on for about 5 months now. I feel horrible. I wanna die. I've lost her forever probably but I think I love her still, yet I'm not attracted to her. :(
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby impromptu » Tue Sep 02, 2014 4:27 pm

Alanator wrote:I did something really bad. I cheated on her by sexting another chick and now we're kinda broken up... my girlfriend is in the hospital with severe depression due to my ROCD that's been going on for about 5 months now. I feel horrible. I wanna die. I've lost her forever probably but I think I love her still, yet I'm not attracted to her.


hi Alan, i haven't read all your post, but judging by your statement above, your issues with your girlfriend (broke up with your gf, sexting another girl, lost attraction to her), it has nothing to do (or a little) with OCD/ROCD. but i am sorry if i'm mistaken.

i'm also very sorry you're feeling horrible. and i think it would be good if you spend more time talking to your gf (or ex) about how you're feeling now - with honesty. make the good decision for both of you. or go to couple's counseling as she has depression too. i hope she will get well soon..
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Alanator » Tue Sep 02, 2014 7:48 pm

I suffer really bad ROCD and thought we'd end all this for good... but after sexting that chick I confessed right away.. we're talking again and trying to heal somehow. But as soon as she got back I got my doubts again! :(
It's tiring, it hurts. While we were broken up I missed her, I cried and whatnot. And now I'm getting back to the same old. I may have acted on my OCD and lust. With ROCD comes attraction loss too, as you fixiate on your partners shortcomings and it sucks. We're trying to figure things out at this time and see how it works out. I really regret everything that made her hurt, yet my OCD doubts it and tells me I'm a bad person, which in fact I am.

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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby bendib » Wed Sep 03, 2014 8:25 am

You are not a bad person. The OCD is emulating it. I told myself the same things when I was there. A bad person wouldn't care. You do, ergo, you are good.

Read this:
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Alanator » Wed Jul 22, 2015 7:53 pm

Can OCD cause you to dislike certain things? Or "hate" them?
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Otter » Wed Jul 22, 2015 8:05 pm

No. But it can make you fear that you do.
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Alanator » Wed Jul 22, 2015 8:32 pm

Yeah that's what I meant. Feels real though. :/

My head is spinning with ideas.
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Otter » Wed Jul 22, 2015 8:45 pm

"Feels" real is certainly a part of OCD. Spinning with ideas are too - and lots of fear. Sorry.
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Alanator » Wed Jul 22, 2015 8:49 pm

Otter wrote:"Feels" real is certainly a part of OCD. Spinning with ideas are too - and lots of fear. Sorry.


I was really fine until 2 days ago. I really hope it'll go away again. I felt great, happy, OCD wasn't messing with me and depression went away. Now I feel like crap
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Re: Pure O ; HOCD ; ROCD; (POCD?) - Can't take it anymore.

Postby Otter » Wed Jul 22, 2015 8:55 pm

Sometimes we "spike". The anxiety hits, and it can cause depression too. I see you have 30 posts, so I assume you have a past with this. I hope this doesn't last, or you have a "plan" to take care of it, if it goes on too long.

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