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Before I got married, there was a small window of time when i could have shared my past with my wife, but for some reason I chose not to, and there has yet to be another opportunity for me to share. I am afraid that any opening up that I may do in the future will come across as insincere. Any advice?...

I hate myself so much...

I hate myself because of everything that happened to me. I blame myself for it.
I mean as a kid I never tried to tell anyone. I let him do things to me. He always made me enjoy it. I went back to him. I wanted him to hold me & to love me. But I had people in my life that loved me, yet I didn't want anything to ...

Hi! I'm new, and I'm fairly unfamiliar with all things technology related. I've never really been on a forum before recently. The past few days I've been trying to find a place to talk with other survivors. I don't know exactly why. I'm just hoping that it might help somehow.

I am just starting to realize the impact that my abuse had on me. Until recently, I was really good at holding myself together. I ...

**trigger warnings: family mention (brother and father); sexual abuse; animal abuse; child sexual abuse. VERY GRAPHIC**

note: i have been formally diagnosed with complex ptsd.

i’ve been very sick for a week now. while i’ve been sick i went through a mental break of sorts. the medicine i took interacted with my usual mental health medication though it said it wouldn’t. i had constant nightmares.

anyway, at one point as i was trying to fall ...

Well when I was a child me and a close female friend would play doctor. I’m a male and we are two years apart roughly. We started doing this game as far back as I could remember. Probably 7 for me and 5 for her. It started out super innocent show me yours I’ll show you mine and so on. But when I hit puberty Is what concerns me. We would engage in more adult ...

I haven't been on in awhile... I thought I was finally doing okay but I'm really NOT.

Trigger Warning.

So the last time my dad abused me I was actually when I was 14/15.

I went over for the weekend, my older brothers didn't come with me, they had something else to do that weekend. My stepsisters didn't live with their mom by that point. (She was/is a drunk) So I was there by myself. ...

I don't really know where to start but I guess I'll start with this. When I was a child I slept in my mothers bed until I was around 10/11. She would often be the one asking me to sleep with her, which she never did to my sister. Sometimes she would come into my room and sleep in my bed. I have memories of feeling uncomfortable as she spooned me and touched me under ...

Hello, SAI forum.

Call me Marcella.

I normally haunt the Dissociative Identity Disorder forum, but this place seems better suited for what I have to ask. Anyway, two years ago, I found out I have repressed memories of being sexually abused by a member of my immediate family. Today, the abuser's stepmother caught me calling her by her name instead of "Grandma". This upset her and now I feel I may be in a jam ...

I'm 33 years old....for several years as a child, from 9-12 years old, my older brother sexually abused me. It started out physical and i was terrified of him. He would lock me in closets, burn me with lighters and beat be unconscious. He used that fear eventually to force me into submission for the sexual abuse. It left me scarred for life and unsure about my sexuality(am not gay).i was molested two other times ...

***TRIGGER WARNING***

a few days before new years eve, i got a letter from my uncle who lives in oregon. i pretended to not notice it until yesterday, when my dad got ahold of it & suggested i open it.

so a few months ago, during the summer of 2018, i was actually supposed to go visit my uncle in portland. i liked him a lot & thought he was really great, and i was ...