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So .. Done that.. Been there .. Had that.. Gotten away from it. I survive.
Psycholocigal abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, living at the streets @13y old, fosterhome, then crime and working warzones, fought off society, normality and "what everybody else does". Diagnosed PTSD and F60.1. Add to that physical wounds and disabilities.

Getting of age now. Way past young. Succesfull in an introverted sense, lost my kids, kind of happy with that, no debth, ...

Let me start simple. 9 year USMC vet diagnosed with SPD in 2012. Separated in 2016. Working as a cable guy in Tennessee.

Deal with people 10 hrs a day 4 days a week. I put on my" happy and engaged " face and by the time I get home I am exhausted. Even though the work isint physically hard pretending to care about people all day is draining.

Does anyone else deal with this ...

Hello all,

I would greatly appreciate your input. This is my first post and a bit of a long story but I will try to summarize and answer questions as needed.

My partner I strongly believe has SPD. I have a Bachelor in Psychology. I am a medical doctor. And I went over the diagnosis with my therapist. I myself have Borderline Tendencies but no longer meet criteria.

I have known my parter for 12 ...

Currently, I have not been diagnosed by anyone telling me I have SPD, but I think I have the disorder. I really don't have the mental capacity or the willingness within me to even care about myself and what other people are feeling: as far as I'm concerned, it's a black and white world with no vibrancy. I have very little emotional response, and very little can affect me. I also have been unofficially diagnosed ...

For most of my life I have been trying to figure out why I'm not like other people, why the connection with others just isn't there. Beyond my (now) adult kids, I do not have, nor desire any close relationships as they are usually a waste of time, too complicated, or psychologically taxing. Even with my kids, I did not feel connection with them when they were little, but felt I was "playing" the part ...

was going through memory lane about my earliest nihilistic moments, thought i should share.

sometime u know something but u don't know how to put it into word, for example explaining u are being gaslighted before gaslighting as a word became popular.

the following is me putting what i knew as a kid in words as an adult, note am not native english.

i was one of those kids that play god with insect(mostly ants), ...

Hi,
Are there any psychoactive drugs that are suitable for schizoid treatment?

So, I'm here again after a longer time.
Was thinking about things in me, trying to explain them to myself. Because I must explain them also to others, if I want to work in this world. Without work you don't live long.

Anyway, it was said the problems occur when other persons are unsatisfied with the relationship with us. With a lack of emotions. Maybe we could say we don't signalize acceptance. Don't know how ...

I cannot wait for you to find your feet and then I can get you out my life. Yeet.

The way you manipulated me and hurt me at every turn sucked. Oh yeah. I deserved it. But I think I have repaid my karma and you need to go.

I can't believe you manipulated me when I thought I couldn't have children. Now that I found out I can, you are back onto your shaming ...

When you have screwed things up beyond repair, nothing matters anymore.

I'm not depressed. I'm not happy. I'm just an it now.

Things that I thought were real problems were not psychological, just medical. Things that I thought could be psychologically resolved because of medical impact, now healthy, go back to hollow.

It's not even a hollow that needs to be filled. It's just mehness.

I thought I loved - but now I can't retrace ...