I've just entered my 30s, and I've never felt more guilty, scared, ashamed, and hopeless in my entire life.
I can't even say exactly what it is I did.
But, to be clear, I've never:
Exchanged or solicited nudes from anyone
Touched anyone inappropriately
Forced myself on anyone
Raped anyone (in fact, I'm still a kissless virgin)
But what I did was still sexual in nature. My brain had tried justifying it for almost 10 ...