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Hey im diagnosed with cptsd..
Sorry a longish one.

I guess the reason for my ramblings is for accountability and to hear others experience with similar feelings and struggles

I've been noticing more and more how I get kinda impulsive and radical with buying stuff when I'm on a low... It's usually either craft related of toy related.. Mixed with wanting to give my daughter all the things I never had, aswell as fulfill a ...

There's so much I don't eve know where to start.
Molested 3 times by different men before I was 10, childhood physical and mental abuse from father, raped at gunpoint at 17, domestic violence filled engagement at 19-21, met a wonderful man at 22 and got married at 23. His mother was absolutely horrible to me. First 7 years of our marriage was awful. We are finally in a good place together since her passing. ...

My memory is all over the place and I see parts of it as if it were a movie.

In this movie its dark and I see a child.

She's got no face. She wears dark clothes and a dark hood..

This child is me but she also feels really separate. She's actually in hell and she's all alone.

I'm gonna rescue her. I'm gonna go to where she is, take her by the hand ...

It is 15 years since my Diagnosis. I may have posted here about this issue, but can not find anything of mine on the subject.

What follows is my own opinion only, and could be seen as a progress report perhaps?

When I was first seen, I had started reacting strongly to very harsh childhood abuse. I was in my mid 30s when it began to be clear that there were emotional things going on ...

Story made short..

Had a weird childhood and I got kidnapped and drugged a couple of times in my teens.

Never really thought about it too much at the time. Just kind of bounced back and carried on with my life.

Anyway years later I started to become really anxious around people and if a stranger approached me in the street I would get the memory of being kidnapped and I would either lash out ...

I'm only new on here, & newly-diagnosed 3wks ago by a psychologist. I'm wondering if other PTSD folk have sought to have their heads MRI'd so that they can see if they have anatomical signs of a "PTSD Brain"? This is all new to me, so my apologies if this subject has already been covered elswhere & I missed it when I was searching.

I’m hoping for some perspective from people that may have gone through therapy if that’s ok. A couple of weeks ago my therapist said ‘he’d been getting some of my intrusive images’. We did some exposure therapy regarding a certain situation I don’t want to go into for fear of triggering anyone. I feel like I’ve affected him and now i can’t imagine talking about other difficult experiences. I don’t know if this is something ...

hello,
i have been on this site 3 years ago but i lost my password so i made a new account, because i am having too much on my mind and i really can use your help again.
:)
i live in a theocratic country, somewhere in one of the gulf countries,
the way my parents raised me caused me a lot of stress in my life ...

No idea if this is the right forum to post in, but since things shifted after I experienced a traumatic event then I guess it might be the most appropriate. I'm not sure anything is real. I can't connect with anything... my feelings, other people, my surroundings. It feels less solid than a dream; things look bizarre and fuzzy most of the time. In fact when I dream it's far more vivid and realistic than ...