News of Living With Mental Illness Forum

Living with my condition is like having that really bad flu, except it never goes away. You just want to lie down in bed all day. It's a horrible existence.

So... I struggle heavily with anxiety, including generalized anxiety and social anxiety. And... it is suspected I am on the autistic spectrum, plus my OCD-like tendencies make it very difficult for me to get out of my own head sometimes and really interact with others or socialize, and... I have been told I come across as very self-absorbed and I seem to be rude a lot when I don't mean to be, I don't even ...

After today's ECT treatment I'm more energetic and I have less stuck thoughts. This was my fifth ECT session. My sensory perceptions are stronger as well. I'm also less numb and less depressed. I'm really happy that it's really helping. Hopefully with more sessions I will be well enough to return to a normal life.

The problem with being mentally ill is that you (I) have no credibility. Everything you say, every opinion, every like and dislike is measured as an aspect of mental illness. We have no voice. We are not heard.

I don't know what is in my "file" but it must be very bad. No one will listen to me. No one allows that I may know what I'm talking about. I can't get any type of ...

I don't know what this is, honestly. I'm just trying to see if anyone else has experienced it, and if so can help me explain it to my psychologist.

For background bc I think this might be related, I'm recently (a month) discharged from a 5 month inpatient and just got discharged 2 days ago from a day program outpatient.

Basically, I've realized that whenever I hallucinate, hear unexpected sounds, see people do certain things ...

I find that in recent months, every time I speak to my grandmother, I come away feeling like I have done something wrong and I feel horribly guilty. She never specifically tells me I've done anything wrong but she has what I perceive as a disapproving, disappointed tone and a stern expression. I have to say I am actually fearful of her now and wouldn't dare ask if I've done something wrong.

I know this ...

A while ago I started experiencing something odd: when I come into contact with something that is extremely unpleasant and hurtful for me (I don't really feel that it is, I have to recognize that it is, based on my previous experiences), I don't feel hurt, my eyes just close on their own and I sort of go limp. I'd compare it to blacking out, but I retain my consciousness. I'm just somewhere in my ...

I've been going through dissociative episodes, and lately it's been getting worse and more frequent.
Dissociation, as in moments of detachment from one's own body, senses and surrounding.

Today's afternoon, I went to do shopping. I didn't have a cart, so I was carrying most of the stuff in my hands, some of it in my pockets. When I got to the self-service checkout, an episode occurred. And so now I can't remember whether I ...

I'm constantly being manipulated in my thinking by some evil spirit, whose sole purpose is to deceive me at all costs. Does someone have any advice on how to overcome this?

My fatigue is so severe that it leaves me unable to overcome my obsessive thoughts. The fatigue also renders me unable to fulfill my obligations at school. I'm also completely physically and emotionally numb as though nothing is real. I want to die. Of course there is hope out there that things will get better, but I don't know what that hope is and what that hope would come from.