I can't remember most of my childhood. I'm only starting to recover some little parts and they've all been bad and scary. (bullying, abuse). I think my brain blocked out most of it. I was told I was bullied badly, got into fights and all. My past is a mystery, I want to remember. It would explain why I'm like this, my severe depression, the suicide attempts, self harm, distrust. What really confuses and ...
Ok, it's a while i've been experiencing some disturbingly weird phenomena: 1) I go to the bathroom and find a water bottle on the shelf; i think "Oh, who knows what the hell i was thinking, probably had that bottle with me and forgot it in the bath" and i take it back to the fridge. The following day i find again the same bottle on that shelf... wth? 2) Yesterday night i wasn't feeling ...
It appears that I have, in the past, been re victimized numerous times by someone very cunning who has taken advantage of my tendency to dissociate and develop amnesia. About four months ago, I became aware of what this person did to me through the recall of some very traumatic memories. At that time, I discovered that this person was living in a house very close to mine (they may have triggered me). This caused ...
Has anyone ever told you what you did while you were blacked out/dissociating? I'm scared, I think I slept with a stranger. I keep getting all these memories that I can't tell are real or not.
My mom can not remember how she disciplined us even says she never did these things and I remember her twin brother who has been on every drug,alcholic and seriously depressed can still remeber her discipline that she did to us but she cant but she is busy reminding me how I turned her in for abuse or how I was a difficult child. How I was bad to her its like why does she ...
I'm having a really hard time coping with, and trying to find out, what's going on with me.
This is the first time I've ever reached out to discuss this with anyone beyond my very closest friend, but I'm under the impression my mental condition is deteriorating. I've done very little research on the topic mostly because I'm terrified of what I might find. I was diagnosed with SPD (Sensory Processing ...
newbie here and 2 weeks ago I would have thought i'd have no business in this forum but after some recent events perhaps so. So about a year ago during a casac training class we did a project that had something to do with memory (funny, i dont remember actually). We were asked to recall our earliest memory. I was left with a memory of when I was about 13, I knew for ...
I've been dissociative for as long as I know. I can't give exact details regarding how long I've been this way, probably because it's apart of my 'normal' range of day-to-day living. I can't walk down the street without going inside myself, or floating above myself and watching someone else doing things for me, and then when I come 'back' I don't remember anything that happened. But that's only half the issue here...