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I have been fighting strong urges to self harm for over 3 weeks now. I'm even dreaming about it now. There is a small part of me that doesn't want to, but I fear the bigger part will win. With my therapist out of the office for almost 1 month now, I really don't have anyone to talk to about it.

Dear fellow sufferers,
I greet you humbly from rural Western Africa.
Please forgive me for typing these horrible words. I truly, sincerely, hope they are not hurtful, they are merely my pain. Moderators, I acknowledge you, and respectfully apologise to you if I do wrong here - I guess you shall just delete these foul words, but for pity sake, spare me just a moment of pity as you do so please? For I have ...

The urges to hurt myself are so strong. It’s so hard to keep asking for help. Life is too hard at present. Sorry

Fears of recurrence? No Fear here....

Disabling depression why would Cancer do that? until your faced with the reality you can't even imagine what its like.

Anxiety, trauma, and panic are all going away. So what changed for me?

Well i've been feeling like killing myself in the last year to end all this pain i'm suffering not only mental but physical. I feel like my wishes have manifested. In the past year or so ...

Hi Everyone,

It has been a long time but I just wanted to pop in and say hello. I also wanted to say for those of you who are struggling that things can get better. I was in such a dark and self harming place but I have managed to heal. I still have scars but my partner loves me despite all of that and, whilst I don’t love them, I think I can live ...

Edit: My AWOL due to covid mental health team is coming to see me sometime soon. I would tell them that my mind keeps going over the image of shoving a knife through my eyeball into my brain but all that means nothing much to others ugh. All they will do is fumble their words and then the same old nothing will happen i bet. That or they will think that i am not serious ...

I work in a court.
Yesterday appeared a young, new attorney. Half my age.
As one recognises another, first thing I notice are the terrible scars on her forearm. The gown we have to wear do not nearly cover them. Others are going to see them.

My heart ached. Just so sad. Her efforts to cover them with tattoos only seem to emphasize them.
I wanted so much to tell her how well she's doing. ...

I don't feel like explaining.Sorry.I just get right into whqat's going on now.My therapist told me to call him if I had any suicidal thoughts.But I don't think he'd believe me if I haven't done anything yet.I'm so tired.I'v been thinking about it for years now,but never had the guts to do more than self harm.But I think I should do it now.I feel useless.

Life is hard. I don't believe that I've had it that had, but still it's hard.
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I need a reason not to die. I can't find one now. My family was the main reason why I didn't do it in the past, but from this point of view, the dissappointment that I see when they look at me, maybe it would be better if I did do it on those many occations that ...

Well I've held from posting since Christmas.

I felt like I was tired of whining. Which is all that I seem to do here. Which should not be considered as a judgement on anyone else; only myself.

I'm not sure why I've picked today. Everything seems fine. Well, not out of the ordinary, at least. Wanting to cut...? Adult $#%^?

Idk. Well maybe I do.

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