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Her entire life, she had been a stranger to her family—a niece neglected, forgotten, and left to navigate the tumultuous waters of her existence alone. The bonds that most children take for granted—the warmth of an aunt’s embrace, the comfort of knowing that extended family is just a phone call away—were luxuries she never knew. No one called, no one wrote, no one visited. She grew up in an unpredictable, unstable home, where her father’s ...

I have had a past of struggling with retaining a job over the years. There are some jobs that I've quit in one month. But the current job I'm at I have managed to hold on for one year and 3 months (laughing to myself right now, because that is how low the bar is). I love the work I do, because I get to help out rescued animals, and my boss has shared with ...

I am so hurt.
had my brother's wedding last week. we dont have a close bond and dont talk much.

at wedding, i had fallen and was walking with a limp.
when i was helping move chairs for some relative, my brother's father-in-law tells me: oh where will you go limping around.. i'll tell someone else.

i got so hurt. how can you tell anyone: 'limping around'!!!

i'm not ur friend for u to use ...

Saw an article in some scientific journal on ketamine for BPD, seemed promising. Think it was from Europe (Germany or Switzerland). Nasal ketamine spray for person with severe BPD, seemed to improve everything -- depression, anger outbursts, etc.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9156400/

On the other hand, I thought I read an article suggesting BPD makes people a bit more disassociated already, so that made me think a dissociative like ketamine could exacerbate ...

nothing makes sense. i can never decide. takes me weeks to decide something on amazon to buy. n then once i have it. takes me weeks to decide if i want to keep it or return it.
n this is for something like vests or t-shirts

have a pathetic career where i can barely function. i'm 33. a loser. no confidence at work where i'm barely managing before they fire me.

doing entry-level job.

still ...

I've just come across two words, or phrases, that pretty much sum me up: Maladaptive Daydreaming and Hikikomori. I don't know if there's any kind of link between these two things or if it's just me.

I do know that I've spent most of my life daydreaming. When reality bothers me, I tune it out and go to my room and just immerse myself in fantasy. When I don't want to be me, I just ...

Everything in my life can be going well. I feel like my BPD is under control, I am making positive steps towards healing, I am taking care of myself; then boom. I meet a guy and everything starts spiraling.

The negative thoughts begin, I start obsessively comparing myself, slip back into my negative coping mechanisms, feel a frantic urge to either run or push him away…

It starts to become hard to tolerate myself. So ...

Well it is 2am here qld Australia time. I have just spent 15 minutes on Lifeline chatline to get some help. No one available, not there fault, understaffed. Here goes another BPD low. I should be used to them by now. Self awareness has sharpened that fact but the lows just seem to push through it all. Just had to quit my vet nursing study due to anxiety that took over my brain and sent ...

Hi all, I'm very new here, and I hope this is okay to post, and it's okay to post here as apposed to somewhere else.

I feel like most things I do are weirdly calculated. My facial expressions, my body language, the things i say, my actions. It really all relates to other people and making sure they perceive me the way I want them to. When I talk to someone, I'm thinking of everything, ...

i miss my old friends so much. i dont miss them as much as i miss the illusion of them taking care of me. i just have these images/fantasies of them n i want to cling on to them. :(
will life ever get better... :(
i'm 33 already.