TRIGGER WARNING
I'm not intending on harming myself in anyway, but like, my brain is all "hey, let's go kill ourself! WHOOPIE!"
Like, it's going away, I can feel it going away, but this I've been experiencing symptoms for ten years at least, and this is the first time I've had this happen. I've been suicidal in the past, but depression what was there, not mania.
God, I'm calming down, thank god, but like, it's ...