Marijuana for Self-Regulation

I am curious about other narcs experiences with using marijuana to self-regulate or control parts of the disorder.

I am a medical marijuana user. I find that it really loosens me up and allows me to be more open to my experiences, less likely to rage at others, less likely to get caught up in my sadomasochistic self-destructive situations, etc. It also helps me sleep - which is REALLY important, because I don't sleep much. It's almost 4am while I type this (I didn't smoke tonight).

I'm not suggesting that NPDs go try cannabis or anything of the sort. I am just asking about the experiences of others - and I am also curious... Do you think this is a healthy choice? What did your therapist tell you about marijuana and NPD?

From my reading I

Lol... Noticing I, I, I as the starting word for the first three paragraphs... ME ME ME!

From my reading, I (lol) am led to believe that marijuana is often the 'drug of choice' for those with NPD. Or at least for certain types of pwNPD.

What are your thoughts?

And to the mods - If I crossed a line asking about an 'illegal' drug that's legal where I live, please don't delete my account...

I love the culture and the image that comes from being a pothead. Makes you seems cool and you can get N supply from it. Would be scared $#%^less of being chased by a dealer with a knife. Never smoked weed but wih I could try toke just once. I know a narcissitic stoner who always brags about his association with drugs.

Thanks - that's good stuff.

So like I said, I am a medical user with a doctors prescription. There are literally dozens of medical marijuana dispensaries in my area - so I'm not dealing with drug dealers or being chased with knives

Also, NO ONE except only like two people who know me know that I smoke pot. It's NOT a narc supply thing. It actually helps... at least it has the appearance of helping from my perspective.

I hold fast to the idea that cannabis has been used for medicinal purposes for something like 10,000 years. It's FAR healthier (if vaporized or eaten) than a lot of prescription drugs and has WAY fewer side effects (like cotton mouth). I prefer that over side effects like 'anal leakage' or 'may cause instantaneous death'.

The length and nature of the side effects listed for many prescription drugs is REALLY scary to me. Especially after you hear these stories years later - the "oops, we though it was safe, but now you've permanently lost your olfactory senses" type stories or worse...

Well, my personality obviously clashes a lot with the beliefs shared by many people in the pot smoking culture, but I love smoking weed. I'm not exaggerating when I say that my temper would probably land me in jail if I didn't smoke. It really helps me with anger, so I pretty much stay high all the time. It doesn't really prevent me from being motivated or cause any problems in my life, so I don't see a problem with it. Things that would usually cause a lot of anger or at least a rude remark from me, I'm more able to just let slide when I'm high.
It was just legalized for medicinal use here last year, but I only know one person who has a prescription, and they haven't opened any dispensaries. My state supposedly has the strictest regulations on medical marijuana out of any other state that has legalized it, and there are no mental conditions listed as being able to qualify you to get it. I'll probably be getting mine illegally for quite awhile.

I just smoked weed yesterday and saw the movie gone girl. I was cracking up about what people might think of me and I was so blunt with people (dry humor) I probably came across as a d1ck. I like smoking though it takes my mind off anger generally and I just seem to enjoy whatever I'm doing.

It also makes me feel open and less angry like you guys stated. Also things are less annoying. There's not much more to add than what you guys already said. Just came here to show my support for cannabis!

PS I'm living in a red state. So no legal or decriminalized weed for me sucks having to deal with people that don't know how to run a business.

Understanding marijuana and using it properly is important.

Years ago i used to smoke a lot of pot, but all I knew was that I was smoking pot. When I picked up my medicinal card earlier this year, I started to learn about this magical healing herb.

The two dominant strains are the Sativa and Indica strains. Everything else is a hybrid variation of these two strains.

Sativa's are best used during the daytime. Different strains will have different effects, but in general, sativa's offer a more energetic effect.

Indica's are best used at night. Again, different strains will have different effects, but indica's generally tend to provide a sleepier effect.

I tend to buy Sativa's that are 25% or more Sativa dominant and Indica's that are 25% or more Indica dominant. I don't generally play in the middle ground, with a few exceptions.

The best methods for consumption are either as edibles, or via Vaporization. Joints, pipes, etc are all fine, but they include much higher health risks. If you are already a smoker you may not care, but if weed is all that you are smoking, use a vaporizer. I LOVE my Pax (by Ploom).

Vaporization is immediate and will provide a peak effect for up to an hour (depending on the strain and quality of your bud) and a residual effect that could last up to two or possibly even three hours.

Edibles take anywhere from 45 minutes to 1.5 hours to kick in, but when they do it happens all at once. Edibles can provide a peak effect for 4 to 6 hours or so, again depending on the quality of the material that the edibles were infused with. It ramps down from there, but it's not unheard of for edibles to continue having an effect that last 8 hours or more. You MUST be careful with edibles - sometimes it's tempting to eat one quarter of a pot brownie and say 'I'm still not feeling anything', so you eat the whole thing. You may not get the effect you were looking for if you overdo it like this - plus, you're just wasting your weed!

I prefer not to use edibles anymore. I WILL NOT DRIVE UNDER THE INFLUENCE. Taking an edible means that I am stuck for pretty much the entire day - or I need someone to cart my ass around from place to place. If there's an emergency I may not be able to drive... I just don't like the limitations it imposes. Edibles are good if you're going to be somewhere all day anyway though. I also avoid edibles late at night - it often gives me a hangover of sorts the next morning.

There are also concentrates and a whole host of additional forms of consumption available, but for the purposes of getting some relief from cannabis, the above approach has worked wonderfully for me.

Favorite Sativa: A really nice Durban Poison!
Favorite Indica: Doesn't matter - I'm going to sleep

Links:
https://www.leafly.com/ (database of strains and dispensaries).

potheads are boring
and the 1st rule of being a manipulator is : be entertaining
+ aren't npd's to much of a controlefreak to do things like alcohole and drugs?

i don't get drugs they don't do much for me (same with alcohole)

Well - based on my reading a lot of pwNPD end up self-medicating with their drug of choice because the internal difficulties are so difficult to deal with 24x7x365xLife. Marijuana has a higher rate of usage amongst those who've tried it. Based on my experience, alcohol always just made things worse. Marijuana on the other hand - has actually helped on a number of levels. It may even be a part of why I'm here typing this. Maybe it gave me the distance from my problems that I needed in order to be able to start accepting them... I don't know.

By the way - I haven't smoked for the past two days. I still have plenty - but I feel like right now I need to be with this thing - no matter how hard it is! I don't want distance - I want LIFE!