Misogyny Question

I mostly have posted in the ASPD section although I'm not diagnosed with any personality disorder, but when posting there I bring up my issue with extreme misogyny. However, one previous therapist suspected BPD, but I doubt that diagnosis is true. No official diagnosis of any kind, so technically on paper I'm a mentally healthy adult.

I can't seem to find any medical literature that connects misogyny with any illness. I'm gonna assume it's merely a character flaw or blatant immorality/evil. Evil not used in the spiritual sense, rather evil as in bad dude who people should stay away from. And that is true; most people stay away from me and it's mostly my fault since I'm self-centered, manipulative, whiny, and other bad stuff when it comes to women or socializing in general. However, I did try to improve using CBT techniques for 2 years, such as DBT recommended by therapist, but in the end I got burned out and returned to my default ways of thinking, meaning hating women.

I don't know the causes really. I had some neglectful female caretakers, but is it really them to blame? Cause I don't see any peer-reviewed studies that would determine that bad female models would cause misogyny. For instance, my half-brothers had same mom as me, were neglected too, yet they have had numerous girlfriends and don't seem to speak badly of women.

While in ASPD section I mentioned my rape and murder fantasies of women. I know they are bad thoughts/urges to have, but they are in mind each day. I don't think those would've come from bad parenting either. Again an immoral flaw!

A real reason and I admit a pathetic and cliche one for my hatred of women, is probably not getting sex or certain women like I want. I guess more in common with the incel communities. I haven't gotten much sex in life. A little, but nothing satisfactory. With one ex and a few college lays.

So in all honesty, not sure if I even belong on any of these forums. I don't seem to be mentally ill, but rather just bad.

I posted here just cause it's about male health. Wasn't sure where else to post honestly. Don't seem to be a sociopath, though I've had a criminal record and have used violence on others, but people on there didn't see ASPD in me.

I don't know if I'm looking for any answers, but just feedback I guess. You think misogyny is permanent? I'm talking really extreme misogyny here!

I'm probably gonna leave this forum soon but am hoping to hear from some other males.

Misogyny is not connected to any mental illness. I know many successful men who are misogynists and they are corporate officers of Fortune 500 companies. So yes, you can be successful, mentally stable, and be a misogynist.

I would never go to a therapist for help because they will only convince you that you are mentally ill.

One day you might wake up and love women -or - you will always be a misogynist. I'm hoping one day you can be happy with who you are - misogynist or not.