Self-monitoring and astonishment

I m experiencing, from 4 months ago up today, a strange feeling, which is not feeling myself, which sometimes led to a state of fear, insomnia, and the inability to control this feeling, and it caused me great pressure in my mind from thinking too much. Later, I feel that I am watching myself a lot, as if I am waiting for myself to wake up or go to a place... or I am watching myself when I speak.. This feeling started to cause me tension and involuntary heart palpitations.. I feel now that I got used to it as if it had become a part of my thinking But it does not go away... I want a solution to this problem, and how can I restore my normal life?

Peak levels of anxiety can cause the kind of symptoms you are having (palpitations, mild forms of disassociation, etc). Do you have panic attacks? have you had this happen before? Is there anything in your life that is happening that is out of the norm, causing undue stress?

I suffered from this problem 10 years ago. By then, I had finished university and could not find a job, so I spent my time at home. I felt a sense of failure and lack of self-esteem. After that I got married, and the situation disappeared and I lived my life normally. But now I have the same feeling again when I suffered from pain in my back for r a month, and I felt bored. I live my life normally with my family, but thinking continues between me and myself.. I try not to think, but it coexists in my mind.. Currently, I no longer have panic because I am used to it, but it causes tension when I think about it a lot.

Just a note moved from Members' Corner to Living With Mental Illness.

I'm making an assumption here- you're male, yes?

No am a female

Oh, okay. I asked that as a prelude to reminding you how much stock many of us as males seem to put into what we do being part of what we are, and what we think of ourselves. I've been out of work and found it depressing, even though I don't particularly like to work. And, even though I have many confidence issues at work, still, I feel much better for having the vocation I have when I'm not at work. I have a job, it's sort of skilled, I feel as if I have worth.

But, if you don't have a Y chromosome, I really don't know how that works in females. All I know is depression and anxiety are often bedmates. I was reckoning that with your back not good, that the lack of being able to get out and work had been what revived this, since before you were having trouble with getting a job, and had this problem.

Even though that seems more of a 'guy' thing to me, doesn't mean it's not possible for you. I know for me, being out of work, even though I was on a separation stipend for a long time, combined with things going on in the world immediately around me, to set me up for depression, increased anxiety (I'm an anxious person already), and I got long lasting heart palpitation/irregular beating issues. I began to drink more, as a way of making the palpitations go away. Also I ate a lot more, as eating seemed to help. I was admonished to curb the alcohol consumption (at first it was a way of self-medication, but in the long run it exacerbates it) and was given escitalopram for the anxiety, and trazodone to help me sleep. Combined, those two drugs actually do carry an increased risk for heartbeat issues, but in my case they do help. At least, they keep things manageable for me most of the time.