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Long Absence Long Silence

Postby TheNonDenominator » Thu Feb 17, 2022 8:56 pm

It's been awhile, since I've been on here. Hello, again. I have Facebook, but I like this format, sometimes. Not that anyone cares, but it's definitely been a journey! There's so much and so little to talk about, it's baffling. I guess I can describe how I'm doing currently: better, after getting on medication (again), for the first time—around—since I was posting on here. Isn't that funky? Well, after getting off of benzodiazepines, I was put on Setraline (Zoloft). I rely on it heavily, to stave off my panic attacks. They were so severe, I was in the intersection, barely moving—because—my heart was ravaging my whole body with fear and pain. So I had psycho-somatic sensations, which have been reduced. Everything is "okay", to some extent. I am able to stay indoors. Before, I felt like I was suffocating. I have an increased tolerance for pain and fear now, but some things are worse, in the sense—that—I now have a severe depression, where I don't leave, shower, brush my teeth, etc., for weeks, and months on end. It's always something right? Ah, well, I hope everyone else is not as bad, but I understand if you are, or worse—life is tough—"bleck", so we have to be tougher, huh. Anyways, I "blab" on a bit, but—just wish—to extend some formal greetings, for no particular reason. I guess I am, lonely, as I'll ever be. I don't see anyone in-person, but I do keep busy with these writings, and videos. I wish y'all well. I don't expect much, but appreciate, a lot!
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Re: Long Absence Long Silence

Postby Snaga » Thu Feb 17, 2022 9:38 pm

Hello and welcome back!
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Re: Long Absence Long Silence

Postby desperateen » Tue Feb 22, 2022 4:40 am

OMG I relate to the panic attack in public thing... sometimes I just start crying and need to sit down on the sidewalk... I have klonopin to "take as needed" but it's still just so embarrassing. I don't get them when I'm doing a little better, but it's really up and down. I'm new here but welcome back and I'm glad some things are working out for you :)
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Re: Long Absence Long Silence

Postby Snaga » Wed Feb 23, 2022 6:57 pm

For a span of maybe four or five years I was prone to the occasional panic attack, in my twenties. It's a very rare occurrence since then. Usually in public- and usually in specific places. I didn't know what they were- no internet yet- and it wasn't until I read a magazine article about them that I understood what was going on. I thought it was a mind game going on- but reading about it solidified that opinion, and I managed to rid myself of them via willpower- I out-stubborned them. I got bloody-minded about it and wouldn't let them control my behavior (leaving the place where it happened and going home). Once I understood this was my mind playing games, it got better.

I'm still an anxious person, but full-blown, your-heart-about-to-explode kind of panic attack is a very rare thing now- oh my heart gets to pounding sometimes but not like it did. Not 'I'm going to die' kind of attack.
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Re: Long Absence Long Silence

Postby ALR1277 » Fri May 13, 2022 2:43 am

Hello Long Absence Long Silence,
I hope you are well. This is my first time in Psychforums, and after an hour or working it all out I am now registered. Your post I read this morning you posted sometime ago really touched me. For years I have been pretty good at hiding my deep depression, anxiety, post traumatic stress disorder, random panic attacks and now agoraphobia. Without rambling on, I have become very efficient at staying at home with my 2 pets and at times I don’t actually see, interact or speak to any other person for 3-4 weeks- months. I have a plethora of excuses to prevent actual people coming into my home.
( Don’t disturb, night duty, Isolation in this home +ve case within, Gone walking back soon, Answering machine on 24/7, I can’t hear anyone knocking as I have head phones on, outside, next door, on phone, sleeping) and on goes my list.
I suspect people know I am avoiding them, they eventually give up and being left alone prevails.
I have admitted myself to private health clinics x5 times, I take antidepressants, my diet is okay, I have pets for company but I am getting worse and worse with my mental health issues.
I work in the medical field, am the wrong side of 50 but not 60 yet. I have taken extended leave from work and feel I will never return.
How are you, have you found any help and can you go out and what they call “ live” again.
Warm regards, Tink2243
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