Childhood Fantasies and Meaning

Though it has been in a constant state of change throughout my fifty-two years of existence, I still engage in the same fantasy, a mental exercise, or whatever term you wish to use since I was at least eight years old, if not younger. Does anyone know if engaging in the same fantasy/mental exercise for most of one's life means anything?

In it, I'm essentially living on a select number of items I'm able to multiply. That list has been in a constant state of change, and sometimes the rules of this exercise change.

I'm no expert, but the first thing that occurs to me is perhaps a desire to control your environment?

Snaga wrote:I'm no expert, but the first thing that occurs to me is perhaps a desire to control your environment?

That's possible.

Snaga wrote:I'm no expert, but the first thing that occurs to me is perhaps a desire to control your environment?

I had to rethink my reply to your post. This fantasy is a challenge or a puzzle of sorts.

As I said in the opening post, I have to live off a small list of items, but I have an endless number of each item. Therefore, I have to select which items to put on that list carefully.

I've engaged in other mental exercises such as how to get the most performance out of the most obsolete computer possible. I have to find the right balance for that exercise to get the best possible performance per obsolescence.

The puzzle I mentioned in the opening post is the one I've worked on the longest.

Arik wrote:I've engaged in other mental exercises such as how to get the most performance out of the most obsolete computer possible.

I enjoy that sort of thing. My daily driver shipped with Windows Vista.

Arik wrote:Though it has been in a constant state of change throughout my fifty-two years of existence, I still engage in the same fantasy, a mental exercise, or whatever term you wish to use since I was at least eight years old, if not younger. Does anyone know if engaging in the same fantasy/mental exercise for most of one's life means anything?

In it, I'm essentially living on a select number of items I'm able to multiply. That list has been in a constant state of change, and sometimes the rules of this exercise change.

When I was around eight years old, the list of items I could multiply to live off was simple:

Individually Sealed Hand Wipes
Glowsticks
Bandaids
Saltine Crackers

Throw in fingernail clippers and either a lantern or flashlight, and I was set.

When I was in my twenties, that list became more sophisticated when I discovered the existence of survival kits.

In my thirties, I learned that having a survival kit was not enough. I had to consider the volume and weight of that survival kit.

In the past year, it became more sophisticated as I learned how to remove more and more to reduce space and weight. Recently I began to notice it was looking more and more like a MacGyver kit. Therefore, that is what I called it. In my mental exercise, I can MacGyver a solution to most problems by multiplying items from a small list.

That list is still in flux, but here it is as of the time I'm writing this post. Except for the knee pads which come as a pair, I only need one of each:

• Mark 1 Pro Survival Kit
• Knee Pads
• Deodorant
• Emergency Dog Food/Emergency Cat Food, Bowl, and Slip Lead
• Litterbox
• Basic ENT Set
• Pocket Bellows

Everything would either go into a black or blue backpack.