Questioning my own mind. Cussing warning!

Hi, this is my first post on here, and tbh I don't know wtf I'm doing. But, I've wondered this for a long time and I'm too afraid to ask this to anyone in real life.. But if I have the feeling that I've been abused when I was younger (I'm 16) is it possible I was? Or am I just being a stupid attention seeking little b. I struggle with trusting myself and there's literally no one I can ask... Idk maybe I'm just stupid.. Sorry.. I just have to know. I feel so ######6 empty w/o so much knowledge of my childhood.

Hi and welcome.

I have the same questions about my own past. I have some small snippets of memory that suggest something happened and a whole load of memory gaps. I'd like to ask extended family about stuff, but don't feel comfortable doing so. I fear it would raise more questions and problems than I really want to answer.

I don't think it's stupid or attention seeking at all. I do understand the empty feeling, and not being able to trust yourself or your feelings or memories.

You might like to have a poke around the posts in the abuse and dissociative forums- there are a lot of other posters there who can likely relate to the feeling.

Lily

Snaga wrote:Hello, and welcome! I've moved this post to our 'catch all', Living With Mental Illness forum.

What sort of abuse are you thinking happened? Physical or sexual? Everything Lily said- have a look around either the child abuse (physical) and or the sexual abuse (child sexual abuse) forums and also the dissociative forums, to see if anything resonates.

I'm not entirely sure. I know I was mentally abused because my mom has told me so but there's always this other thing there. Like it makes no sense that I wouldn't be able to remember.