Questioning my own mind. Cussing warning!

Hi, this is my first post on here, and tbh I don't know wtf I'm doing. But, I've wondered this for a long time and I'm too afraid to ask this to anyone in real life.. But if I have the feeling that I've been abused when I was younger (I'm 16) is it possible I was? Or am I just being a stupid attention seeking little b. I struggle with trusting myself and there's literally no one I can ask... Idk maybe I'm just stupid.. Sorry.. I just have to know. I feel so ######6 empty w/o so much knowledge of my childhood.

Hi and welcome.

I have the same questions about my own past. I have some small snippets of memory that suggest something happened and a whole load of memory gaps. I'd like to ask extended family about stuff, but don't feel comfortable doing so. I fear it would raise more questions and problems than I really want to answer.

I don't think it's stupid or attention seeking at all. I do understand the empty feeling, and not being able to trust yourself or your feelings or memories.

You might like to have a poke around the posts in the abuse and dissociative forums- there are a lot of other posters there who can likely relate to the feeling.

Lily

Hello, and welcome! I've moved this post to our 'catch all', Living With Mental Illness forum.

What sort of abuse are you thinking happened? Physical or sexual? Everything Lily said- have a look around either the child abuse (physical) and or the sexual abuse (child sexual abuse) forums and also the dissociative forums, to see if anything resonates.