by Snaga » Thu Apr 29, 2021 4:33 am
Well I sympathise. I had an extended family member with schizophrenia that was hard to control. It may be rough for a while- I know for the person I speak of, the only meds that worked were pretty heavy-duty, and a new doctor would come along and try to adjust them, with the usual result of needing to go into hospital to get stable again. So.. it may be a while before they find just what works for you.
But look- I believe in you. I believe you're going to get through this, with your caregiver's help. The very fact you're here, and that you KNOW these voices are... not quite right, and that you know it stems from your illness- means so much. I have never had voices or seen people. I'm OCD- so I have had some pretty good delusional thinking at times- but I've never, or only rarely, hallucinated- that I know of. I can't imagine how real these voices and the person you see must seem. But remember- they cannot MAKE you do anything. You're in control. They can't make you self-harm, and try not to listen to what they say. Keep telling the cpn what's going on for you. Try and keep calm- I know it's terrifying. Hopefully they'll find some meds that work. If you feel as if you just can't help but self-harm, then please to go hospital if you have to. You can get through this.