If the dumb thoughts I have are because of my mental disease or because I'm a dumb person?
I know I'm in the schizophrenia spectrum. I've had hallucinations and I understand I have a tendency not to raciocinate well because of the fact that I'm in the spectrum. But not every time one has a dumb thought is because he has mental disease or because his brain failed. I don't know if was on the internet looking for ways ro kill someone because I was in a psychotic outbreak or because I'm such a bad person that I considered killing my father. I don't know if the fact that I was in doubt if men are inferior to women is because I have some kind of mental disease or because I'm really dumb. How is someone going to be interested in me, if there is no way to find out if I commited these mistakes because I have a bad personality? I don't understand how someone can be interested in me. If people could be sure that all my mistakes are made because of a mental disease, then I could not be considered guilty. But we cannot say that I'm not guilty or not dumb.
I don't wanna date someone who thinks thinking of killing it's acceptable or that we can forgive this. This cannot be forgiven.