Life in fear

I`ve been a hypochondriac since I can remember. I`m really tired of this. Every day I feel like I`m getting symptoms of different illnesses. I also search the web a lot and I read about health topics. I`m constantly checking for "signs" on my body. One day its cancer, then heart diseases,and I`m even afraid of colds and flu. It has gotten to the point when I cant get help because I`m afraid of medical staff. I talk to my close friends and to my parents but I dont want to bother then anymore with this. I`m afraid that I will be sick and not able to do anything on my own... I`m afraid that I will have to stay at home for the rest of my life.

A lot of us have this, you're not alone. It's really hard.
Maybe you should seek some professional help.
I try not to focus on my thoughts, I distract myself and resist googling things and checking myself as much as possible. It makes every day really hard, to live in fear.