Aroused by Death???

I know this is weird.

We have a neighbor who is dying of full blown AIDS.

He is incredibly sick, weighs nothing...skin and bones. He got it from sleeping around on his wife.

For some reaason, I find myself getting aroused when my wife talks about how irresponsible he was and how sick he is.

I don't mean that I am trying to be mean to him. But I find myself turned on basically that is dying from being stupid.

Am I an awful person????

Sounds like a form of sexual sadism to me.

Is it the first time you get aroused by someone dying?

yes first time.

that's why it caught me off guard. but I am definitely aroused by it.

I'm aroused by death too. Not like old corpses, but dying people.

Maybe it's more the AIDS, the reason why he's dying that excites you
It's not like it doesn't have anything to do with sex. unless he was a drug addict or something. and then still, it has the connotation.You're not an awful person, unless he is a friend of yours.