Feigned Seizures/Illness

Eunique wrote:I have been suffering this same thing for the past 2 years. On April 16, 2011 I faked my first seizure. And now I realize I've deceived everyone... myself, my family and friends. My parents have done so much for me and have worried, they've been through hell and back trying to figure out what's wrong with me. Even now I can't stop crying at that thought.

Hi and welcome. Sorry to hear that you are struggling to deal with what you have done. I think that it would be worth considering stopping the factitious behaviour before things escalate. I can appreciate this is really difficult to do but I think it is important. You might find getting professional help to do this is the best thing due to the complexities of what you are dealing with. Please consider asking for help sooner rather than later

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I can totally relate to everything said here.

I too have faked terrible things and convinced myself they were true. My memories of them seem real because I've lied and imagined it for so long.
The guilt can consume you and I hope you have found a way to move forwards.
I thought this would be the death of me more than once and that's just the guilt never mind the dangerous acts I've subjected myself too
Hope you are OK