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Merging at will?

Postby FractalHive » Sun Dec 19, 2021 7:38 am

Does anybody else have the ability to merge and then disconnect again? We have just found that we can do this. It forms a new self... whole self, and then we can break back apart. We appear to be able to do it anytime we want now, and we no longer have the side effect of blurred vision when co-conscious anymore because of it.

I would appreciate any feedback anyone can give me on this subject of merging. Thank you.

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Re: Merging at will?

Postby ArbreMonde » Mon Dec 20, 2021 7:17 am

It sounds like what we would call "blending" and yes, we can sometimes to it at will. Sometimes. Most of the times it happens by iself though.
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Postby FractalHive » Mon Dec 20, 2021 3:51 pm

ArbreMonde wrote:It sounds like what we would call "blending" and yes, we can sometimes to it at will. Sometimes. Most of the times it happens by iself though.
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Blending is a good description, because it is not like a full merge. Just thousands of us are active and co-conscious all at once as if we were. It's weird. It's not exactly like co-conning. We can entirely do it at will so far. We have yet to have a moment we couldn't choose to become Hive.

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Re: Merging at will?

Postby YunaTheSummoner » Fri Dec 24, 2021 2:31 pm

Myself and Juno can function simultaneously in the body at the same time... 2 others just seem to act like spirit guides in the background and seem unable to take control of the body.

Lately a few things have been moved. My iPad has been missing for nearly 2 weeks I think but I feel some time is missing. But neither myself or Juno can sense anyone else when we are awake and doing stuff.

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Re: Merging at will?

Postby FractalHive » Sun Dec 26, 2021 9:31 pm

We have ones who can't speak, but can come in, like the Oracle and Hulk. They can only do what they do. The oracle can only speak in images and with tarot cards or through pandora radio. We ask questions and get answers that are very specific and detailed. Hulk just does what you imagine lol. Hulk smash. :D

We have found that we blend a lot since discussing this with you. We just never knew it. It clearly is how our condition was able to go unnoticed by our selves and others for so long. We think blending is a survival strategy to keep us functional.

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Re: Merging at will?

Postby YunaTheSummoner » Tue Dec 28, 2021 8:57 am

FractalHive wrote:
We have found that we blend a lot since discussing this with you. We just never knew it. It clearly is how our condition was able to go unnoticed by our selves and others for so long. We think blending is a survival strategy to keep us functional.

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That makes sense. Unfortunately for us the body suffered a stroke earlier in the year...I found myself 'shoved out front' (I personally hadn't been the daily host for many years) because I was the one who identified with the real name and the first thing they do is ask if you know what your name is and stuff to assess how bad your stroke was (if you can speak...or show you it on paper ..to see if you can read but struggling to speak).


However I have been stuck out front since. When I was last out I had no idea of what DID was... we had no internet access back then! I have had no memory of what others they were or what they called themselves and how many 'are missing'..just a strange sense that I felt 'comfortable' with other 3 that were out front with me and a note I found about a 'journal on a psych forum'.

Unfortunately not knowing what the past host had called themselves or remembering any passwords and only having access to one email address (which was already signed into on the iPad and probably not the one that was used to sign up with) I had to start a new account.

I haven't found any other site specifically called 'Psych forum' where you can have a journal and talk about 'others in your head' freely like this..so I'm assuming this was the one that was joined but haven't found any past posts yet... quite hard when you have no idea what you are looking for cos you haven't been out since the 90's! ..your body is 20 years older and the world is in the middle of a pandemic!! :shock: :shock:

It seems no-one can be 'triggered' like that part of the brain was maybe damaged so there's no obvious triggers and switches happening like there's a severed connection or broken bridge between 'the front' and 'the inner brain/world'.
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Re: Merging at will?

Postby FractalHive » Tue Dec 28, 2021 5:22 pm

Omg! I'm so sorry to hear that! That sounds terrible. :(

We would be lost without our selves. We felt disconnected like that while being doped up on psychotropics. It was horrible and we hope to never go back to that level of disconnection. It is possible they are just dormant while your body heals.

We just almost died detoxing from alcohol a couple weeks ago, and Sid took the front for 3 days. We've never had any in front for even a whole day, so that was very unusual. Sid quarantined and partitioned our inner world to protect us and other people. It was a difficult time for him and he was traumatized by the event. We all were in many ways. We hope to never have a stroke. I can't even imagine.

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Re: Merging at will?

Postby YunaTheSummoner » Fri Dec 31, 2021 4:50 pm

FractalHive wrote:Omg! I'm so sorry to hear that! That sounds terrible. :(

We would be lost without our selves. We felt disconnected like that while being doped up on psychotropics. It was horrible and we hope to never go back to that level of disconnection. It is possible they are just dormant while your body heals.

We just almost died detoxing from alcohol a couple weeks ago, and Sid took the front for 3 days. We've never had any in front for even a whole day, so that was very unusual. Sid quarantined and partitioned our inner world to protect us and other people. It was a difficult time for him and he was traumatized by the event. We all were in many ways. We hope to never have a stroke. I can't even imagine.

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I did wonder if the stroke had somehow caused them to merge and because there's some kind of faulty connection (ie they can't be triggered to the front) I can't remember them or can't see 'the inner world'.
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Re: Merging at will?

Postby ManyMults » Wed Jan 05, 2022 11:35 pm

We use to have that. We called it 'linking'. but that was a LONG time ago, and stress got into our lives, now we just black out. We don't care. We think we were built more like that... never mind. Still figuring it out...
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Re: Merging at will?

Postby ArbreMonde » Thu Jan 06, 2022 6:55 am

Blocking everything out is useful for short-term survival, but it has the opposite effect for long-term thriving and healing.

Do things at your own pace. Do not hesitate to have a look at self-help DID books and other ressources from this thread. dissociative-identity/topic219302.html
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