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Long guard always up that controls my sexual desires

Postby bellic007 » Sun Nov 21, 2021 5:03 am

I am having this guard like part which was always working 24*7 and telling me to not watch porn over and over and over..like it's very hard that even if I want to watch porn or anything else..I had this part that is constantly dictating me ,usually I heard that people have negative feelings after relapse on pornography or addictive substance..for me its like a voice that condition my brain and mind to don't do that..I feel it's irrittaing because unlike normal people who have an integrative experiance and decision making,I am empty and fogged out all the time.i will carry this guard all the time with me and and this part always takes my energy and make me feel irritated and always leads to inner chattering and conflicts..like each day this guard fights with me about my porn watching habbits blame me and fear me by having thoughts like porn will leads to ego death and stuff.
To be honest I want to stop watching porn but apart from all my life comes first.,my mental health is priority .if my system is unstable I cannot survive in this world..and whenever this guard creates inner conflicts and chatter my system goes in unstable mode..and what I feel was just a foggy need to just live..
Also I experianced that this guard arrests my creative potential as well and also this guard has serious fear towards relapse..
Anybody else have this "guard parts" that constantly monitor your negativ habbits and continue to blame or disturb you for your thoght patterns and emotions and feelings..?
How did you deal with them..?
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Re: Long guard always up that controls my sexual desires

Postby ganjakites » Mon Nov 22, 2021 1:25 pm

the desires thing are going to be worth it for me .
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Re: Long guard always up that controls my sexual desires

Postby ArbreMonde » Tue Nov 23, 2021 8:41 am

It sounds like the "guard part" is an "apparently normal part" who is only able to work. Therefore, anything that is NOT "work", is a loss of time and ressource for them.

If you have access to a DID therapist, they can help you bring your "work only" part back into a proper sense of balance between work-related things and rest-related things. Another thing you can try doing is to negociate a weekly timetable: when to work, when to sleep, eat, exercise, and well, when to "shake the leek". This might help the work-part to realize that, as an example, bi-weekly 20-mins sessions of "adult time" is reasonable. Enough to release some steam, not enough to qualify for an addiction.

It is all about balance. Too much work IS an addiction, too - but it is a more socially acceptable one.

It is all about balance.

Good luck.
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Re: Long guard always up that controls my sexual desires

Postby bellic007 » Thu Nov 25, 2021 9:14 am

ArbreMonde wrote:It sounds like the "guard part" is an "apparently normal part" who is only able to work. Therefore, anything that is NOT "work", is a loss of time and ressource for them.

If you have access to a DID therapist, they can help you bring your "work only" part back into a proper sense of balance between work-related things and rest-related things. Another thing you can try doing is to negociate a weekly timetable: when to work, when to sleep, eat, exercise, and well, when to "shake the leek". This might help the work-part to realize that, as an example, bi-weekly 20-mins sessions of "adult time" is reasonable. Enough to release some steam, not enough to qualify for an addiction.

It is all about balance. Too much work IS an addiction, too - but it is a more socially acceptable one.

It is all about balance.

Good luck.
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Thanks I got your pont about giving adult time to the system.so that ir doesn't overload ..I am nowadays giving some time taily just for adult part.And that's little bit difficult now as long term guard and sexual morality never allowed me to do so..
Now I feel little bit okay..
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