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Owens behavior. Trigger warning

Postby Panther1830 » Mon Aug 31, 2020 11:56 pm

I'm mad and crazy cause I blame my core for me smoking. I take latuda, Klonopin, and thorazine. But I still blame my core for smoking. And I'm the one smoking. I said I'd kill her but I don't want to. I lied but meant it before cause of family re tramatizing situation. And I had to cause protection for her cause I said I was off my pills. I'm ok but need some help. I need to understand why I'm so mad at my disappointment of my core cause I'm doing nothing to help but chores. I need to see myself as a good alter but I can. I'm just acting I know it. But I continue this cause it gets me hurt which I don't want. Yet I don't learn. I forget what it is to be a good alter cause I'm scared I'll be homeless with out meds and kill my core but my cores lawyer has taken care of us and we do have a place to stay. But I'm afraid.
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Re: Owens behavior. Trigger warning

Postby Sarandipity » Tue Sep 01, 2020 8:56 am

You have DID. This means you have experienced great trauma. Smoking is bad for your health, yes, but give yourself a break. Beating yourself up over it will only make your life harder.
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Re: Owens behavior. Trigger warning

Postby Panther1830 » Thu Sep 03, 2020 12:34 am

Look, my core wants to kill herself cause of my psychotic behavior trying to quit smoking. Blaming it all on her. I hate myself for killing her parrot. And I really need to see if I can talk to someone about rebuilding our relationship after re tramatizing ours cause I was not taking care of us. I blacked her out for a year and to her it felt like more
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