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Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby Rive » Thu Dec 26, 2019 9:16 pm

*******Trigger Warning(talk of a sexual nature, doubt of DID diagnosis, etc)*******



I know that in BPD there can be a polarization of good and bad. Seeing others as all good or bad or yourself as a good or bad. I'm wondering if that is just what Thorne is. Just a way that I put all of my bad in a neat little pile. Not seeing any gray area. People have told me that they think horrible things are funny sometimes to. My therapist was telling me she almost laughed at a funeral once because the body of the person looked like a wooden statue. I understand if it doesnt feel like its coming from you its not you. I cant tell 100 percent if its not from me. Only that I dont want it to be.


With Abela there are times that I do things and I shouldn't and I wonder if it's something that I actually enjoy. It's very hard to tell whether I like something and just have a conscience. Or its something I like but I don't want to.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby Allcoulors » Fri Dec 27, 2019 9:00 am

Like told many times before, it doesnt matter so much why or how. You have to deal with and adress the things going on in your system and life. In the end all is you, all the feelings and wants and needs are eventualy in 1 body.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby Rive » Fri Dec 27, 2019 3:48 pm

I don't know if I have a system and this is just all me. Thorne being a borderline trait and me liking bad things but I have a conscience so no Abela either.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby TheGangsAllHere » Fri Dec 27, 2019 4:53 pm

Did you even read what Allcoulors wrote?? It doesn't matter because it is ultimately all you (plural OR singular) anyway. You still need to deal with those feelings whether they're from an alter or from "you."

You're not even asking questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior--you're still avoiding that by being stuck on whether or not they are alters.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby Rive » Fri Dec 27, 2019 7:33 pm

Because I am doubting if I am DID again. If these are just different aspects of a singular personality. The lines are too blurry to what is an immoral alter versus just me. I don't feel that the things Thorne thinks are funny are funny. Then with Abela I can't tell if it's me or her that likes bad things sometimes. Someone here on this forum anonymously textdx me on another forum and explained to me I could be going throgh something called The Imp of Perverse.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby myce » Fri Dec 27, 2019 10:27 pm

Rive wrote:Because I am doubting if I am DID again. If these are just different aspects of a singular personality. The lines are too blurry to what is an immoral alter versus just me. I don't feel that the things Thorne thinks are funny are funny. Then with Abela I can't tell if it's me or her that likes bad things sometimes. Someone here on this forum anonymously textdx me on another forum and explained to me I could be going throgh something called The Imp of Perverse.


Mother F*****!

Rive you are being attacked. Sometimes it happens on the forum that criminals and others with bad motives deliberately try to f** with people to undermine their treatment. They might send triggering PMs like the one you got which causes you to doubt. I'm guessing it's that same arsehole from the IFS cult who's been stalking and harassing you already. They know the forum will check them if they post their nonsense in public so now they're doing it privately because you're vulnerable. I don't know why, I don't know whether they are a criminal syndicate or just some crazy blood-suckers.

I'll answer about the Imp of Perverse. Edgar Allen Poe wrote that. He wrote a lot of pschological horror stuff. The Imp of Perverse seems to portray a fear of dissociative phenomena or even DID. Nobody knew about dissociation and DID in those days. Fortunately nowadays we know what causes phenomena like the Imp of Perverse, and how to treat it.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby Rive » Fri Dec 27, 2019 10:45 pm

I think they were really trying to help me. They said if I don't have communication with my alters that I don't have DID. Also I'm just feeling like it may not matter because we are all one person but to me it matters. I want some sort of separation between Thorne and me and Abela and me. I can't tell sometimes where they end and I begin. If it is just all me. Sure neither of them I want to be like. I don't want to think bad things are funny but does that really mean it's a different personality or I have a conscience? Did part me really want to slam the cats paw in the door and not a personality but I have a conscience so I felt bad. Do I really want to look at people inappropriately and just feel bad when I do? Or is that Abela? I can't tell and it makes me feel bad.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby myce » Fri Dec 27, 2019 11:04 pm

No Rive, the arsehole who attacked you via PM was not trying to help you. They have lied to you and made you confused. You told them to leave you alone and they're still messaging you, if it is the person who I think it is. At best they have a pathological need to delude themselves into thinking they're helping. They're not helping, they're manipulative and controlling for their own reasons.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby Rive » Fri Dec 27, 2019 11:42 pm

I don't think it's the same person. Who knows though. Anyhow, I am still confused and my T is going to be on vaca til the 7th of. Janurary so I scheduled an appointment with my DID specialist.

-- Fri Dec 27, 2019 6:42 pm --

I don't think it's the same person. Who knows though. Anyhow, I am still confused and my T is going to be on vaca til the 7th of. Janurary so I scheduled an appointment with my DID specialist.
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Re: Questions about Thorne and Abela's behavior TW

Postby TheGangsAllHere » Sat Dec 28, 2019 12:28 am

Rive wrote:They said if I don't have communication with my alters that I don't have DID.


This is 100% NOT TRUE, and if you stopped to think for two seconds and used your OWN logical thought process rather than let yourself be gaslighted by ANYONE who wants to mess with your mind, you would remember that OF COURSE many many people are UNAWARE of having DID until adulthood. So during that WHOLE time, they don't have communication with their alters and THEY HAVE DID.

Why do you bother to repeat ridiculous GARBAGE by random people on the internet that you KNOW is not true? It's as if someone says any random thing to you, and you turn off all intelligent thought and discernment. Then you just repeat it here--but for what purpose?? So WE can tell you that it's not true??

I don't know if that person is lying on purpose or is just supremely ignorant (or in denial themselves), but YOU know better than that.

I don't think that you ever go back and read any of your previous posts, and you should because you are doing yourself(ves) a disservice by not reviewing them and thinking about your journey so far.
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